uNbreakable

2010-09-29T22:06:00.000-07:00

yes i'm back.
because why i'm back,i,m super pissed!
like seriously.
i really pitied raihanah .
here she is trying to make it happen and solve dis problem and there you are trying to add fire to the fuel.
im pissed , dissappointed everything!it was just a wishful thought of my own. why is dis happening yet again?if you're not happy or anything say it straight to my face!is adding fire to the fuel ur forte?whats wrong wif you. you know what,i'm begining to lose you like seriously.i've given in,what else do you want me to do?say it will you?
we just want a successful outing but it seems that its not happening at all.
what can i do to make you understand the whole situation? sujud kat kau?what is it?!!!
have i lose you yet?please tell me will you?you said you're tired about all dis but you're not making an effort in making the changes.

2010-02-01T21:29:00.000-08:00

Hey pantat,

Busy ye kau.

Aku rindu kau.

Seriously, bukan psl lame tak jumpe.

Dah lama tak lepak dgn kau and etc .

Meet up sooon kays ? :D

2009-11-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

aren't we the SOMEONE who's always there for you?

hishh!seriously i'm damn PISSED about it .

are we so unresonable that you can't even tell us you could not make it?

are so mean and not understand that you had other commitments and you could not make .

it this all a set up or are you telling the truth or are the telling the truth or all of you lying to us?

hais .

seriously i'm telling you now,this will be our first and last meeting you .

we are utterly,super dissapointed in you .

lies after lies .

i juz dun wish to continue no more .

2009-11-09T21:53:00.000-08:00

yes i went MIA-ING again coz my computer SUPER damn SLOW and internet was SUPER something wrong . hais .

but now its okay lahh .

well the reason i'm updating is to let some people know that you've been neglecting some of us .

yes!i'm SUPER PISSED OFF with some people .

i think you didn't know that you've changed . you change totally . where's the old you?where's the innocent girl which we first knew?you used to be close to us but when you entered a different school,you change totally . at first i didn't notice up till one of my dearests said that you were looked quite shocked to saw her somewhere . i was quite surprised also . so i juz decided to try my luck in messaging you and true enough you didn't reply . i didn't know what ur reason will be dis time . busy as always maybe?or you've forgotten us already?we've always remembered you . you were not like this last time . i know somehow you miss us but i keep asking myself, "if you miss us,why didn't you cal or msg us like you use to"?we use to have conference last time . but not now . we use to share a lot of things together but now it seems that you are not sharing ur problems wif us . its only me and my dearest asking/telling each of our problems. you're now keeping it to urself or should i say sharing ur problems wif ur new frens now?if you think you felt the pinch,think again am i being sacarstic or am i telling the truth?if you think that i'm talking rubbish,then you can might as well forget that we were best of frens . you know talking about you really my heart break . tears flowing coz i REALLY MISS THE OLD YOU!i've told one of my dearest not to put ur picture but actually i wanted but i'm not going to do that coz i want you to feel how we feel . think again . and i know you're going to read this .

not trying to act clever or think that i'm teaching you but i juz want you to know so that you could reflect everything . when i saw the photo that i took wif you, i seriously miss you a lot!i juz want you to know how we really feel and we wish you could be back to the old of you .

2009-10-04T04:21:00.000-07:00

Tons of months my blog was left unattended but lucky me, kentot was updating a few sentences though .

hahaha!

i'll make it short and sweet .

very busy working lately .

doing task after task .

nana joined and she left after 3 days .

and seriously i enjoyed working wof her .

gossips,updates and everything we were talking about .

yes i do miss my girlfriends .

esp my sehati sejiwa and my fierce''tiger''.

hehs!

its over .

met him juz now due to that his grandad was sick so we went over .

talk it through .

and told him that no feelings for him though .

he respected it and wish that we could be close cousins .

i said ok!

and settled!

and safita,you really got a lot to update me on urself wif ur TTM tau!:)

Kentot here.

2009-09-19T20:34:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, EVERYONE !

2009-08-18T17:14:00.001-07:00

At th moment, pantat's busy with her work thus that explain her ALMOST dusty blog. Harap boleh kluar dgn kau soon. :D

2009-08-06T21:23:00.001-07:00

Last sunday was really a tremendous day for me!
though i was SUPER malu like nobody's business but thanks to (god knows who) were there for me .
hahaha!
only my sehati sejiwa know what had happened .
nyahahahaha!
met her yesterday!
as we've not meet up for soooo long,as usual stories,gossips were always in us .
when i went out wif her yesterday,somehow a lot of memories came into my mind .
seeing our juniors studying so hard for exams , somehow we miss that kind of atmosphere .
hahahaha!
mugging was always in our list last time .
but not anymore .
hmmmm .
decided to forget him all the way .
though i was still reminded of him, but i think what's past is past .
not sehati sejiwa is experiencing the feeling i had last time .
hahahaha!
now you know its hard rite babe?
now its for me to think about the future .
hmmm .
ber"iman"?
i dunno .
whats happening now .
things happen to quickly .
yes i know he's understanding .
my uncle came juz now and all i kene was disturbance from him .
malu siol!
relted relatives know but most of them do not know .
i dun want to enclose any information rite now .
so for me to know for you to find out . :)

and something shocking happened yesterday .
got a shocked of my life when i came back yesterday .
ber"iman" came to drop some kuih which was send by his mum .
so the paisey lah!
aku dgn muka selenge aku dah blur semacam!
hais . chis!

2009-07-27T01:58:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i update this blog of mine .

i juz have lotss to talk about but i'll juz make certain things short and simple .

i juz hate this kind of feeling .

or am i juz being paranoid over all this stuffs .

for me friends have been away from me .

i know they are busy wif school but some people juz changes fast .

as i've said maybe i'm being paranoid wif all this things but some people do change .

maybe for some they dun think they change but for me they change .

all i can say is you're not the person that i first use to know .

ever since i'm not schooling now , things have change fast .

i juz dunno whats happening to ur life or what's going on .

i dun wish to mention any names so that it won't cause any misunderstandings to any of my friends .

if some asked,maybe i'll tell maybe i'll not .

so i guess each one of us is leading our own life .

and i'll not be interferring in ur life anymore .

i won't contact you no more .

dun worry .

i know you'll be happy wif all ur friends around .

i'll juz forget everything about you .

and i wish you all the happiness .

and another advice for you,dun bottle up ur problems .

find someone that you can trust and pour it to her/him .

you'll feel better that way .

though i still worry for you, but for me,you dun need me anymore .

take care always .

2009-07-15T21:01:00.000-07:00

well here i am again .

been missing a lot of stuffs lately .

some knew what happened but some dunno .

many things had happened lately .

so couldn't join the gfs outing .

sorry girls .

i got my own reasons on that week .

cleared everything to my parents and i'm glad that its all over .

they told me a lot of advices but nevertheless,i did some reflections on my own also.

they talked quite alot of stuffs which includes relationship also .

hais .

not now for me to think about all those .

the reason that they were talking was because that they did confiscate my phone for 1 week plus and they did read my past msges wig him .

so they told me not to go beyond all this and the worse thing is to not contact him again?

like wth!

but told them that i will contact once a while which i hope i could seriously do it .

hais .

and i dunno if i could continue on this academic studies .

if once again this does not work,i'll think about other choices i guess .

and dis past few weeks,i've not been going anyway at all .

only wif my mum .

so i think this problem of mine had subside,i'll go out wif you people .

and i've been missing a lot of people lahh!

esp my girlfriends!:)

2009-06-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

Kentot here.. Kentot here

I'm here to make an announcement.
OUR PANTAT IS BACK!
*screams*
PANTAT!
Welcome HOOOOOMMMMMMMMEEEEEE ! *grinning*
Rindu aku tak. Nyahaha. Aku rindu kau. :P
Alhamdullilah babe, you're back safe and sound.
Ok, jgn lupa ilang kite crite-crite kau semase disana.
Kentot, signing off.

2009-06-25T20:45:00.001-07:00

Kentot here.

I bet pantat's enjoying her trip.
She mus have forgotten about us kan :P
Anyways, I cant wait for you to be back.
Why?
Cos I have an almari full of stories to share with you.
Currently in a big dilemma.
Be back soon alright.

Kentot pooooting off.*poot poot*

2009-06-22T08:21:00.000-07:00

Kentot here.

Pantat had a hectic week last week.
Tomoro she will berangkat to Jakarta.
Jgn lupa kite semua, aku tau kau sedih nak mampos.
I know, you know la ehk.
Jgn lupe sourvenier dier tau.
Had SJ's BBQ outing last sat.
Well, I wont elaborate much on it.
If you really would like to knw, read my blog or some junior's blog.
Yesterday, if I'm not wrong, she went out with *cough cough*.
I know how it feels.
Maybe you're at th right path, maybe you're not.
You will never know if you dont give it a try.
Ah, you know what I mean.
Sorry ar babe, aku tkde mood nk type much uh.
Pretty down lately,so I did my part to update for you HORRR.
Have fun while you're there.
Selamat pergi dan alik.

Kentooot pooooting offff. hehs.

2009-06-12T03:44:00.000-07:00

and i forget to add .
nana,have a safe and wonderful trip to bali .
i bet you it's gonna be a wonderful trip and fruitful trip .
i'm gonna miss you dearest . :)
take care of urself there babe .
:)

2009-06-11T21:57:00.000-07:00

somehow my mind seems to have a lot to say

but i juz dunno what seems to be going on .

sometimes i juz hope all this is not happening .

one after another .

problems after another .

hais .

can anyone juz listen to what i wanna say?

can anyone understand?

i juz dun feel that this will go nowhere .

sometimes i juz feel that can all this end?

i'm sick of it!

everytime it's always me who is thinking about others feelings but others juz dun bother about how we feel .

hais .

i'm sick of giving in!i'm sick of caring about people!i'm sick of everything!

thinking about all this i juz can't help but juz to broke down on my own .

can anyone juz lend me a shoulder to cry on ?

hais .

i juz dun wish to think but thinking that this problem will keep hanging on,until when will this be over?

i juz dun like this feeling!

i really don't!

it's juz up to you if you would want to do it or not!

2009-06-11T21:20:00.000-07:00

PANTAT HAD FUN YESTERDAY!
PANTAT LOVE STARING AT HERSELF.
I'M CRAZY AND SO ARE YOU.
PANTAT UPDATE MY BLOG!!!
SEE,YOUR BLOG IS NOT ROTTING .
HAHAHA!
BUT YOUR LIVEJOURNAL IS.
HEHEHE.

2009-06-08T00:45:00.000-07:00

school's out .

and i dunno what to do at home .

going out?

none of my frens is into the holidays yet .

problems?

not yet settled .

hais .

i changed?

seriously for me i did not .

i dunno what made you say i changed .

automatically i broke down when i read ur entry saying that i changed .

maybe to you i changed .

but the way i' am i did not .

i'm still the old me .

hais .

i dunno .

if you think i changed,i'll be myself again .

you said you could forgive not forget?

okay .

its up to you .

maybe i'm too busy wif school and had no time meeting you guys .

but that does not mean i changed .

for me when i had school,i won't go anywhere after i finish school .

i won't stay in school except if there's any extra lesson .

by the time i finished school,i'll be SUPER SHAGGED .

everyday wake up at 5 in the morning and leaving home at 6.20 in the morning makes me SUPER TIRED!

and ending school at 6 for three days,another at 5.30 . the earliest that i could go is 5 .

only thing was when ,2 weeks before exams was coming we only had a day or two which is to go home early .

the rest was all normal timetable .

yes others could do it but why not me?

do they start lesson everyday at 8 and end at late evening?

some yes,some don't .

hais .

i dunno what will happen next .

if you still can't forget what i've done then talk to me when you're really over that incident .

all i can say is i'm truly sorry over what happened that day .

2009-06-03T00:13:00.000-07:00

Pantat !

Good luck for your examinations !

All th best for your attachment too !

Take care when you're there, dont get too emotional if you see any patient's 'leaving'.

Truly hers,
Kentot (:

2009-05-30T04:09:00.000-07:00

Ok, kentot is here to update.

Dah mcm blog aku gitu ehk.
Yesterday, this pantat went out with her friends or shd I say BEING FORCED to go terminal 2 with her friends. I bet she had fun esp ahemahem- I know you know jek la. She planned to visit Ernie darls but sadly darls switched off her phone. I guess, she took th bus home and Zzzz.

Kentot's signing off..

2009-05-26T18:01:00.000-07:00

So, kentot here to update this pantat's blog.

I'm in school now and pple, if you do came across this site. Relink her yea. Cos I was th one that change her url and I have no idea whom to tag. Ohh ohh. I've relink too. So, pandai-pandai cari. HAHA. Pantat's in school now and so am I. My internet at home dah sot-sot uh so probably will take a long time for me to change this pantat's blogskin and songs. Not to worry, i'll do so once my internet's fine. Believe me (:

GOO PANTAT!
ok,random.

2009-05-25T19:31:00.000-07:00

Seriously i got 10000000011 things to update .

a lot of things happened lately .

only kentot knows what happened .

broke down silently without anyone knowing .

with whoever i go to school wif,they juz dun know what problems i am having .

gile duuno . he also dunno .

no one knows .

somehow i juz dun care about whats gonna happen in the future .

people have been saying that we look like''couple''?

like wth!

no we're not .

somehow i think that we can be close frens but couple?

no i dun think so .

though that i do have a feeling for him,but i think i'm more comfortable being friends wif him .

relationship aside .

friendship comes .

had been reading some blog entries .

hais .

i dunno whats happening to each one of us ?

i wonder,different school misunderstanding still do occur?

yes i miss you people but understand my situation when i'm always ending school late .

test had ended .

exams is coming .

stress on academic and on th other hand,had to think about all this things .

hais .

when is this gonna be over?

thought of going out wif them when the holiday comes but looks like we can't make that happen until this things are settled .

had been getting along well wif classmates but i think we can be improved .

taking things slowly .

seeing how united we are yesterday,we can be very united as a class in future .

well,after holidays won't be coming to school for around 2 months plus for our attachments .

so looks like this will be the last week of me going to and fro to school and home wif him .

hahahaha .

like wth lah!

i guess i'll miss his craps lahh .!:)

and lucky me i escape from his clutches when he wanted to ask his frens to sing me a birthday song on my birthday.

kalau tak,malu gile lahh aku!

but still his classmates did wish me the birthday wishes!:)

and SM people are SUPER united lahh!:)

2009-05-25T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hohoho~ Kentot's here to update for pantat!

Well well, her birthday has jus passed. Hopefully she had a memorable one. Recently, she's been ringing me day in and out about her school. Recent updates of her life and etc. Esp today when she told me how worried she was over th blood pressure test. Dont worry, babeh. You can do it. Gampateh ! Dier tk tau camne nk spell a-c-c-i-d-e-n-t-a-l-l-y. HAHAHAH! Well, it seems like she's enjoying her ITE's life. From th early morning to late afternoon spent in school, well I can even assumed that her school is like a second home. Friends are her new family members. Nasib dier tk lupa kwn lamer ye. Ok lar, i dont know what else to update. Hope she's fine with her 'couple'.

& I ponder, Why is life always so random ? Cobaan hidup, pantat !

2009-05-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

had been busy in school to update .

but since today is friday,and i've got nothing to do before i go to johor,i decided to update my blog now .

it had been a WONDERFUL DAY for me coz like finally i opened up my golden mouth to TALK!

wondering who i talked to?

hah!

find out from me !

only my gile knows about it!

hahaha!

plus had been having test,test and more test .

phase test 1 i passed . but i think bio i'll failed .

imagining me learning bio when i had not learned before?

MATI sey!

next up is class test for nursing studies,phase test 2 plus bio test 2!

OMG!

too much lahh sey!

and after that will be exams!

stress lah sey!

and nothing goes in my mind for bio!

there's like 1001 things for me to learn and memorize lah!

ok .

that's it .

i'm shagged .

toodles!

and 11 more days before i turn old another year . :(

2009-04-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

yes i went MIA-ING for a few weeks!

didn't have the mood to update coz of some certain people .

heard the story from kentot about what happen last week. which is in school obviously .

yes!heard it ! i was SUPER DISSAPOINTED with some people.

i juz couldn't expect that you that i know who use to be a very nice girl and somehow a bubbly girl , i juz didn't expect that you bring down the morality of the cadets .

who were you to judge people when youurself thought that youwere PERFECT?

ithought in this CCA you 're not suppose to use favourtism to anyone ?

how did you change?

from what i heard,i could sense that you're not the person i use to know .

or should i say you got influence by someone which i wouldn'tsay who .

well , i dun think i will be going down to school no more since that i always finish school late now .

and the other thing i dun was to see any nonsensical person there .

i juz dun wish to have any connection there .

whatever is happening there,people will update me about it .

whatever is happening in that school,i won't bother since the year 4 and 5s will be stepping down soon .

with the year 3s being in charge,i seriously hope that you guys will be doing a GOOD JOB for this 1 year .

not expecting anything but i hope it will change .

whatever it is, year4 and 5s happy graduating people!

and seriously i've long forgotten hym .

like finally!:)

and somehow i juz miss someone .

2009-03-28T02:57:00.000-07:00

pointless,moodless and everything .

it juz wasn't what i wanted .

i didn't enjoy . nothing .

no one knows anything .

it's all deep down .

dun wish to mention anything .

mood swings maybe?

but maybe its not .

dun wish to say anything .

its pointelss .

no one knows how it feels .

do whatever you guys wanted .

i dun bother already .

and i might be MIA-ING for a while .

seriously,its pointless to say .

might be changing my number soon .

will update some relevant people only .

dun bother asking .

i'm sick and tired of everything .

and things is juz not in the way that i wanted .

2009-03-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

super shagged .

me!

dearests .

loved them .

kentot and pantat .

the most funnniest thing that happen here . :)

us again .

the group photo . :)

wanted to update yesterday but as the photos were send late by kentot,so decided to update todae .

went out wif the kechorable dearests again yesterdae .

the plan that i had made wif kentot was to meet them at amk hub .

but ernie msg me to meet her at lina's bustop at 1 .

and i was like,what 1?

when i have not even changed and everything ?

so she said she'll pick me up at my bustop at 1 .

i was so the kelam kabut and went to change and rush out of the house at 12.55 .

lucky me she have not arrived when i was late .

then proceded to take wewe,kentot and nana at simei .

after that we went to catch the movie at amk hub .

and we watched coming soon .

it was SUPER SCARY lahh!

as i was seated next to kentot,i hide my face behind her shoulder .

and the hanging parts,i was like grapping her shoulders lah .

and she thought i was bitting her .

hahahaha .

madness .giler per gigit! :)

so after the movie we roamed around at amk hub for a while coz the coupon was still usable .

then after a few min,as we did not know where to go, we decided to go to T3 .

photo session as usual .

and something happened at the toilet of T3 .

dun wish to mention .

only we know what happened .

hahaha .

after a while there,we decided to go back .

and kueen raihanah,i hope you will enjoy ur stay at cambodia .

will pray for you to and fro your journey .

and i will miss you gf .

take care of urself there and forget ur unhappiness there .

let them do whatever you want and you will do urs .

2009-03-23T01:52:00.000-07:00

i just feel disgusted by looking at ur face !

asted innocents in front of other people .

when people confronted you,you denied that you did not said what had been told!

like wth!

people are not stupid lahh !

you acted innocent juz to have the attention of others!

i juz feel disgusted lahh!

i HATE this kind of people lahh !

if you felt the pinch,then it must be you lahh!

making people believe every single things you said .

and i think some are stupid lahh .

juz because you did something nice and you felt that people must take ur side ?

and because of you i think friendships have turned sour .

some suffered of friendship coz i dunno what spelled have you put to them .

if you wanted them to like what you're doing,then try other ways and means lahh!

not by wreaking other people friendships .

yes,you didn't know that you wrecked their friendship,but now i'm telling you .

as i've said if anyone felt the pinch,then it must be you then .

and ....

you juz did not understand the intention of her telling you all those things .

you always meant it to be a bad way .

have you listened to others and let them explain?

no,you didn't!

i dun mind of whatever its being called .

why bother?

and through enough,i really know you were bothered by it .

how long have you serve them?

how enough do you know the people there?

how well you know them?

not to be boastful,but i think i know them better then you do .

although i'm not that into all those but i think i went into much than you do .

and why bother of what's been called when i dun even bother?

i juz understand ur attitude lahh!

you keep telling people to do this and that .

but have you ever listened what others wanted to tell you?

why flared up over such stupid things?

hais .

please lahh!

grow up can?

she will almost break down soon juz bacause of this .

dun make things hard for her can?

she's caught in between of you guys when she's only the messenger of telling you the whole situation .

think again lahh .!

and thanks dad for the money . :)ILY!

and exactly 3 more weeks before i enter a new brand school, new environment,new frends .

how am i going to adapt life there ?

2009-03-22T04:10:00.000-07:00

it's over .
like finally .
i knew it .
she was pressured .
she was stress .
so everything is back to normal .
haha .
had quite a talk wif her .
and gosh lahh !
i miss elly like god knows lahh !
i guess its been SUPER long since i last saw her lahh .
i hope that the date i suggested they could make it .
and yesterday the whole family were out shopping .
i guess its the first time my father spend a lot .
which it amounted to almost 1k lah .
from 8 plus in the morning till almost 4 then we were back .
from my brother's camp which is at CCK to geylang to have breakfast then to singapore expo .
and from the addidas sale which we spend a longgggg time there to halal fodds to robinsons sale !
all in 1 place !
like wth lahh!
my leg was super very painful lahh .
and the sales of the adidas was soooo the a lot of people lahh !
the prices of the adidas things really went down lahh!
it was the superb lahh!
original adidas things really went down!
phew!
my brother from not wanting to buy anything ends up that he bought the things the most .
hahah .
thats it people!
on tuesday will be going out wif girlfriends again .
yeah! :)

2009-03-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

cleared the air wif gyler .told her the whole truth which i had been keeping from her. and thought that she will be angry wif me but it turned out that she didn't .gosh!i was super shocked lahh . and while i was talking to her online,tears came dropping down when i told her what happend . i didn't know why tears keep dropping whenever i told anyone what happened . i dun tell anyhow . only told some of my closests buddies .they kept advicing me to be strong and have patience . yes i will try . i could only told them that . but i didn't know if i could do it a not . and juz now had a small tiff wif mother over a stupid misunderstanding also . as usual, people dun give me a chance to explain what happend and ending up accusing me . am i always in the wrong ? ita told me to give her sometime to cool down . which i think i will give her . maybe due to stress she tends to burst up . i dun blame her anw . i know what she's going through . sometimes i think people won't think what they say esp when they are not in the mood or whenever they are under pressure . mostly it happens to a lot of people . though i do not know what problems you're having, i dun mind that you will blurt it out to me or vent ur frustrations on me . sometimes elly, i tend to think back how i met you and how we became closer which is from strangers to besties . i dun regret knowing you though . for me you're the one who keeps lending me ur ear whenever i needed one . you would uphold justice when you know that i'm not in the wrong . i'm glad that i knew you and through all the miscommunications and misunderstandings that had been through, i dun regret building this friendship of ours . i hope after this you'll cool down and i really hope you'll forgive me wif all the misunderstandings . and to wrapped it up this giler gerl of nur safita wants me to praise her by saying she's PRETTY AND SWEET! . happy now giler ? ahaha . :) and giler thanks for cheering me up !:)

2009-03-19T00:42:00.000-07:00

like wth lah!

update two post juz now .

one is gone already!

shit lahh!

but i dun care .

i'm gonna update another one now .

seems that everyone of my closests is having their own friendship problems .

whats happening nowadays?

having misunderstandings wif our besties turned our friendship into a sour situation .

i dun get it .

why do we tend to have a lot of misunderstandings?

and i never before had any misunderstanding wif her before .

it only happened yestersday .

everything happend in a flash .

tried to explain to you but you didn't want to listen .

i was guilty yes .

i wanted you to listen to my explanation but you didn't want to listen .

i was devastated .

thought that you were the one who understands me .

but you didn't want to reply to my msgs and calls .

you were always the one for me when i was feeling very down .

you were always the one that came to my mind when i was feeling down .

you know how i felt .

tons of advices you gave me but now you dun tend to listen to what i want to tell you .

i knew you had a lot of problems .

i mean who don't .?

i wanted to tell you everything but you did not gave me a chance .

i told you the truth of who i was talking about .

yet you tend to misunderstand me .

had sleepless night yesterdae .

i could not help but keep blaming myself over what happen .

if i did not wrote about the person ,they won't be any misunderstanding between us .

i can only blame myself .

I'M SORRY ELLY !

I DUN HATE OR BLAME ANYONE BUT ONLY MYSELF!

i'm feeling down now .

please understand me can ?

2009-03-18T23:46:00.000-07:00

and to someone which now i really dun feel like meeting you,i kinda feel that you're not who you are .
you changed .
everything .
you were someone older then me .
so?
i dun give the bloddy damn of you .
i really felt very irksome of looking at ur face only .
dun make me do the same thing i did to you a few years back .
and i know i did not regret of doing that to you .
last time you apologised and asking what the hell you did wrong .
but now i dun feel that if you were to be begging and apologise , too bad .

i'm not gonna face you anymore .

you had two sided face .

dun pretend to be nice anymore .

we knew ur true colours but the only thin is that others dun even know what's happening to you .

you could anyhow twist another story and said a different side of the story .

thought you changed but you didn't .

thought i had forgiven you about the things that you said last time .

but seeing the attitude of urs ,makes me feel that you're not worth forgiving .

time and again you did it .

disappointed with you .

i'm seriously feeling like that .

do whatever you want to do after this .

i'm washing my hands off .

dun come crying to me and complain about stupid stuffs .

adviced you but you did not listen .

truthfully you deserve it!

2009-03-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

she's always there to cheer us up .

and look at my eyebag .wth!

as i've said at my previous post

i dun want to mention about the camp .

whenever i think about it,my blood will surely boil .

but you guys left me wif no choice .

i dun care about what you guys wanna say but i want to say this .

sometimes people are to pampered esp when you're the only child in the family or you got siblings .

but looking the way you are giving the attitude i think you're th only child .

i dun care how you were treated at home or by other people .

but when i gave you advices,you thought i was scolding you .

like wth lahh!

dun tell me i have to talk like a fren to fren to you in front of the trainess?

i'm not like you which i see that you're talking to the trainess like as if you are having a very slacking camp?

you told us that this will be a camp trainig camp?

so let it be a training camp then .

but why are you aren't you making it a training camp?

i dunno what you told to him or her that i scolded you?

please understand the meaning of advicing and shouting can?

good enough we are only advicing you .

i think if you were in our shoes during our time,i think you'll bee peeing in ur pants or crying or shouting ur throats out when you were in our shoes last time .

you guys are better off then us .

i think if you guys were in our shoes last time,you guys will hate us for sure .

juz like this you think that we're scolding you?

sometimes i think you guys cannot accept us scolding you or you guys will give us a stupid black face .

i dunno what's happening to this teens nowadays .

simply can't accept any acolding .

and you even want me to apologise?

like wth!

i'm not in the wrong okay .

if you think that i'm scolding you,FINE be it then!

i dun have a guilty concience .

why should i?

and you even told my kentot to apologise to you when she did not even utter any stupid single word to you?

are you out of ur mind?

can you think?

she did not even scold or say anything to you and you wan her to apologise?

MADNESS!

and to this another person .

you think we're being nice to you?

NO!you're wrong!

why should we tell you what's happening when we know that they will surely tell you?

dun act innocent and treat everything that you dun know .

we knwo you're on whose side .

we're not STUPID !

get it!

and somehow i like it when you were banned and scolded by someone by someone close to you.

told you before,not to take advantage of what's been given to you .

but you did not listen .

so what happens now?

i'm not being cruel of thinking what you deserve but you reallydeserve what you got .

2009-03-17T17:24:00.000-07:00

candid lina! pls dun day dream! :)

i super like the houses there lahh!

candid nana! :)

me and janah! :)

candid again!lina and ernie stop making that faces! :)

why that ''FRUST" look?:)

group photo!:)

stop that acting cute face lina! :)

dearests .

whats wif that two behind ? :)

they're loved . :)

threesome . while waiting for the others .

shagged is what i can say.

camp ended .

back from camp and i was truly boomed till the next day .

lacking of sleep makes my head hurts.

after the day that i came back from back from camp,the next day i went to meet my derests secondary school mates .

so yesterday was super nice outing wif them .

from east coast to parkway to vivo to sentosa .

they wanted to watch movie but their planned were cancelled all because of ME!

all baceause i had curfew!

i was kinda guilty lahh .

because of me you guys could not watch the movie .

I"M SUPER SORRY!:(

and mother told me to pay back my overdue fasting .

so she told me not to go out unless i finish my fasting .

so people,i'm not going out till next thursday as i'll be paying back my overdue fasting.

sadded . :(

sometimes i could not understand my parents .

sometimes my brother and i would think why they would treat us this way when our frens parents are not like them .

sometimes when we go out the latest we can be home is before my dad comes home which is ard 6++ .

i sometimes really envy my frens which they can go home as and when they like .

dad told us before the curfew will go on until we get married .

like WTH!

think we're still kids uh!?

like gosh i dunno what's happening lahh .

and i'm not gonna mention about the camp .

and dun expect me to go to school anymore .

sick of it!

kentot will know it!

2009-03-11T04:47:00.000-07:00

me again!

what's wif that look?ahaha .

our busok faces!

kentot and me .

me!

its okay big brother!

try again!

study again .

i think you can't concentrate coz of wat happen .

its okay .

there's still another try .

you still have a lot of time .

need not rush .

although you failed,you're still the best brother!

and i realised that you're not like last time .

you're really the matured big brother!

and we dun quarrel like we use to .

except that you would always joke and sometimes you're irritating .

ahahaha .

but ur irritatingness is sometimes quite funny .

ahahah .

and in another 6 more months is ur ORD already!

and you're free from NS already!

2009-03-10T19:45:00.000-07:00

saw someone's blog and i think she changed a lot !

and i mean a lot!

few years of friendship i thought you would not change but you truly changed .

i dare not say who but we use to be close frens and i still think she is .

but for me, she changed !

there's this saying , make a new fren but dun forget your old frens .

you're not the gerl that i use to know .

from going out wif you use to be fun but lately when we were out , i think you change a lot .

maybe we are not so close anymore since you had ur frens .

why the sudden change?

i want the old attitude of urs .

you sometimes hesitantly wanted to go out .

its like you're being forced to go out .

you were not like this but suddenly your attitude changes .

no doubt that sometimes i wanted to tell you the truth but i juz do not want to hurt ur feelings and end up that we will have a big misunderstanding .

i know you have a lot of frens but i juz find that you're not the same person anymore .

sometimes i would think back during old days that you were the person that we used to know .

everything changes now .

and a lot of things have happen lately which i would not want to mention here .

frens aside . family is my most concern now .

brother got caught by dad yesterdae wif a group of his frens with a gerl with hym when he's suppose to be in camp .

he was stunned when he saw dad .

he msg me asking if parents were angry wif hym .

and i told hym obviously .

i think he was scared and he called my parents juz now .

and now its okay already .

and now you can concentrate on ur practical test drive todae .

good luck big brother!

you can do it!

if you could not do it, it's okay .

there's still another try!

dun worry .

and yesterday when beach road wif wewe and kentot!

when round and round the whole beach road including hq .

gosh!

when we arrive there, we were talking abouth the times when we were

always suppose to go to hq for exams,competitions,meetings,interviews .

years passed and it seems that its been a long time we've been there . memories are a lot in SJ .

sweet,bitter,cries,laughters .

i'm missing all those bunch of cadets .

and 3 more days to camp!

and i simply can't wait .

but the thing i dun like is, we have bring full-u!

and its been so long since i wore it .

ahahaha .

thats it .

pictures will be uploded later when kentot is online later .

2009-03-09T19:11:00.000-07:00

sometimes i think frens are juz not forever .

some frens juz say that whenever we are not in the same school,we must not forget one another.

but sometimes they juz say it so that our friendship is not broken .

i'm not saying about anybody but somehow this topic came to my

mind a few days ago .

when i think about my frens, hmm, i dunno .

i dare not say but i will juz say some parts and no to have any misunderstanding, my frens

as i've said,i'm not saying about anyone but this is how i feel .

from primary school,i did not keep in contact with them except for some but as for secondary school i'm still in contact with most of my frens but now when i'm not in school already, i tend to feel that frens change easily .

attitude changes,the way they treat you is different also .

i wrote about this is also because that i got to know my father's story which he got cheated with a big sum of money through his best fren .

thats how the topic came to my mind .

learning from this, somehow i feel that we should not let our frens take advantage of us be it our best frens or a normal fren .

so i hope i could refrain from hurting any of my frens with this post .

if any of you is unhappy,i'm sorry .

2009-03-06T04:40:00.000-08:00

hais .
again i'm going to johor tomorrow .
suppose to be todae night but my dad was tired .
so tomorrow morning i'll be going .
and up till mondae till i'm back .
gosh!
sometimes i'm sick of johor but since we are going further than johor,i decided to follow coz i will shop again!
ahahaha .
juz bought a new heel slippers a last two daes and here am i gonna shop again at johor and malacca .
ahahaha .
great!
i'm gonna spend again .
and seems that she's trying to make it up to me since that time she lose her temper at me .
ahaha .
i dunno whats happening to my mum nowadays .
well,no matter how bad her temper is,she's still my mum .
and toddles!
i'm off to pack my bag now!
and next week is SJAB camp!
gosh!
i can't wait lahhh!

2009-03-03T22:27:00.001-08:00

Gosh!
what's happening to parents nowadays .
they can simply change their mood .
they can simply vent it on us .
they always think that they are rite .
its not fair lahh .
think we are their punching bag is it ?
sometimes their mood is very good but sometimes their mood juz changes .
as i juz told kentot , sometimes i juz wanna get out of this house coz i juz can't take it anymore !
whenever they are in a very bad mood esp the mothers,they would juz curse or scold you like nobody's business .
as i said at my last post i'm bored at home .
she juz bloody dun understand how bored it is at home .
and good enough i'm staying at home dis week .
still she's not happy .
complaining that i'm out everyday?
WTH!
i didn't even go out lahh!
everywhere she wanna go,i follow .
now she's giving me this attitude !
waliao .
and i'm not going to school until the camp daes .
as i'm having my reasons .
only kentot will know .
i'm sick and tired of having this kind of mother!
i've been putting up with her nonsense and here is she giving me hell!
ARGHHHH!!!!

2009-03-02T23:32:00.000-08:00

I'm SUPER frustrated now!

juz dun bother asking!

i won't answer to any questions asked!

i dunno whats wrong with me by venting my frustrations to anyone!

and i'm bored!!!!!!!!!!

i wanted to go out but its no use now!

i'll juz keep on rotting and rotting then!

and dun take advantage of someone when he/she

gives you faces!

i'll tell the whole truth to the person!

you juz watch your back!

if you're feeling the pinch,that person must be you then!

i will do it when i'm really angry now!!!!

2009-03-02T01:54:00.000-08:00

i've been missing a lot of updates lately .

i was super tired nowadays .

had been in and out of malaysia this daes and for the info of you guys,i might be staying in malaysia in the future .

that's why my family had been in and out of malaysia lately .

but its still not confirm yet as my mum and i do not agree as we might not get use to living there but my brother juz dun mind about my dad's suggestion .

i dun really like staying there although the houses there are beautiful and the standard of living there is quite low .

my dad says if we were to live there,we could save a lot of money and the things they are a lot more cheeper than in singapore .

i too love the houses there but seriously i'm not interested in living there which in the future i have to be in and out of singapore if i were to work in singapore in future .

i'll be exhausted and the timing of going home is to tiring .

by then i have to sacrificed a lot of things in singapore .

as my cousin mention the place won't be like at orchard road or ps .

we have to get to know the places there and get use of taking their buses .

and mentioning about the transportation,they dun have mrts like we have in singapore and their buses mostly are buses to overseas . even if they have buses its only very limited.

hmmmm , i really need to consider very carefully and i have to sacrificed of leaving all my bunches of dearests friends when i'm there .

AND , forgotten that todae is ernie eirda 19th birthday!i'm so sorry babe!

from primary schoolmate when we not quite close to secondary school buddies and still going on .

i guess its been 10 years since we build this friendship . you were always there when i needed someone to talk although last time we aren't that close ,we did became close after we entered secondary school . i dun regret having to know you . you were always the one giving us rides when we are out . although sometimes we use to quarrel due to some misunderstandings,but that were only ups and downs when we were friends . and i juz hope that dis friendship will last till the end . ily babe! :)

2009-02-19T04:01:00.000-08:00

its burokkk lahh!

my dearests . :)

CANDID!

pizza hut

dearests .

primary schoolmates to best buddies

UNPREPARED!

ernie, me , kentot .

kentot where are you looking at?

UNPREPARED!

me and kentot!

my dearests . :)

caught you kentot! :)

shiok sendiri kentot . :)

kentot and me .

kentot caught me red-handed .

shiok sendiri kentot . :)

ME!

kentot!

ME!

Today went to yuying to see mdm sharifah and to look for ms liza also .

while we were waiting for mdm sharifah,she was also waiting for us .

how funny that was?

ahaha . after waiting we decided to go and eat at pizza hut with mdm sharifah treating us.

thanks cikgu! :)
after around 5 we departed wif cikgu and ernie while the rest of us when to walk ard the pasr malam . and as my throat and my stomach wasn't feeling that well, we decided to part our ways around 5.45 .

reached home the first thing i went was to the toilet!

everything that i had eaten was being thrown out .

from the past two days after drinking the cereal my stomach always wanted me to throw everything up .

i will have phobia drinking of cereal again . ahaha .

and not to forget we did took lots of pictures .

and overall i really enjoyed the dae withe my dearest .

the next outing will be the picnic during their holodays before

i start school .

will be looking forward to that dae .

and to end it , DANNY GOKEY is in the top 12 of AMERICAN IDOL!

wohooo! i loike ! ahaha .

and tml will NOT be going to school

as i will be going out wif dearest amalina tml to shopped again!

and my dad have given me the green light to buy a new beg .

huahuahuahua .
and not to forget kentot and i saw what we want to see todae .

hahaha .

its an inside joke of me and kentot onli .

and be warned we are not lesbians who drool for girls only .

we dun drool on guys as there's no guys to drool on juz now .

ahahahaha .

2009-02-15T02:43:00.000-08:00

the 3 of us without zai .
me and fidah "sleeping"

dayah,dabitah and ME!

ME promoting ct's mango drink .

isn't she cute?and i like her name

nur helfizza wirda . nice rite?:)

me and fidah again .

me and fidah .

"acting" to concentrate in class .look familiar the guy in red?

two innocent girls have started playing games during class . ahaha .

stop giving me that look ct!:)

me,fidah,zai .

On friday meet my kentot and wedia and off to school

but before that we went to have lunch first at pizza hut .

and kentot and i have been observing this laddie manager .

seriously she looks hot lahh! we intend to go to pizza hut again and obsserve her .

ahahaha . how pervert can we be? ahaha .instead of guys we drool on we went to the girls .

ahahaha . but we are no no lesbians . ahaha .get it?

they had a few hours of footdrills which they were separated in the speect day contigents and the NA and NC team which were lead by us respectively ,wedia,me and kentot . but soon after a few rounds of training the NA team ,i gave it to the OIC while i juz help kentot on the NC team .

after that at 5pm,they had the games so as to welcome the year 1s . cca ended by 6.00 and after that had meeting wif the year3and year 4 . and due to that i was late back home . and me knowing that i will be panic and getting scolded by my parents i ended up taking a cab home which cost me a bomb! STUPID cab!go wrong way!but when i reached home,i was not getting a scolded but my dad asked me "are you a free labour of st john"? ahaha . i was laughing but i said i went down juz to help out before school starts .and due to that incident i'm not going to take a cab home but juz go home on my time which took a bus home .

today had my religious class as usual .

somehow i like todae as most of the time we are not paying attention especially during the last lesson .ahaha . as usual me,ct and fidah will end up camwhoring instead of listening . ahaha

but i did not expect is that the two sweet girls were also playing BINGO behind us . hahaha . iit was really a very boring lesson for us esp the last lesson . so we ended up doing our own things . ahaha . and somehow he had been two weeks absent .hmm. better . without hym around, it was much more quieter . ahahas . enjoy the pictures above . but only some of it . the photos are all from last 3 weeks . :)

toddles!

2009-02-12T02:39:00.000-08:00

Went out in the morning with my darlinks to swimming .
at first wanted to go gym and after that swimming but then we onlyu went swimming .
hahahahs . how fickle minded can i be?
ahahaha .
then after swimming went to hougang mall and went to the library .
after that had our lunch at mac and when around again .
after spending around 4 hours plus,and waiting for hayati and ct,we decided to go under my block to crap and gossip again .
but i went up first as i was super tired and shagged already .

tml will be going to school to train them for speech day
will be meeting my pantat tml as she's feeling very down due to some jerks doings .
leaving her unstranded and helpless .making her cry for the whole morning and not making her going to school . making her sick and weak .making her to pick herself up which i guess will be a long time to heal her heartbroken wound .
have you ever think how she will overcome it?
how SELFISH can you be?
juz thinking about yourself?do you always make this kind of breakups to every girls you were with?you juz think about yourself but not the victims .
what kind of USELESS GUY are you?
promises were juz meant to be broken .
making her so weak and making her believing in your words .
you cheated on her feelings!
if in the first place you think you will hurt her because of your character why in the first place you went on steady wif her and ending up hurting her in the end?
you said you were homesexual?ahaha .
i guess you better is . not trying to encourage or insult but if you were to be like that it weould be better coz you will not end up anymore girls .
think about it . how many girls have been hurt by you?
while you only think about hurting them but i know you won't allow the girls to hurt you rite?
think it through . i'm done here .
and pantat,cheer up!
i'll always be ur listening ear .
and dun give up for a tree as there's a lot more in the forest for you to choose from and which really will appreciate your existance not like the JERK who had juz hurt you .

2009-02-07T04:35:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging .
I've been MIAing from my blog for a few weeks .
Had been slacking at home and going out always .
Shopping is also a part of my hobby now .
As most of you people know i'm going to nursing at simei .
WOW!i guess its a reunion for some of us except that we are at a different course .
but its okae as we will meet in school .
for me it will be another a new environment,new friends,everything new as i'm the only one in nursing . :(
Yesterdae went down to school to train the comp team.
the only advice is practice,practice and more practice as it will will make their footdrils better .
and we know that you guys can do it .
Saw Akmal and Ahmad , they were always looking to where me and hizan are standing .
If you all not happy or wthere's something wrong wif us tell us can?
I was quite pissed wif someone which includes hizan does not know .
i won't say it here . if you wanna know ask me personally . :)
and i saw TIPAH at school .
GOSH!i miss her like lotss lahh .
And hizan and i really wanna meet ms liza .
went off first as i was so sleepy and amira send me off at the gate .
thanks adik .
while walking to the bustop,i was smsing with my beloved ELLY SURYANI .
and i know i have been missing a lot of ur nonsense .
and i asured you that i won't forget you lahh .
i'll set the date and we'll go out . arite gf ?
I dunno if i should come down for SD rehersal .
i see how k hizan kentot .
and heard that he'll be going to NYP in i dunno what course and he'll be back around march .

2009-01-24T04:49:00.000-08:00

well i'm not working anymore.
it's very boring lahh
because of the economy we the part time have been retrenched .
juz because school will start in a few months time does not mean that we have to go first .
but never mind .
i dunno if i wish to search for any jobs again?
i really had no mood .
munirah had been my chatting partner when i was working there .
i juz know that she's a fun person to be with .
so dun judge a book by its cover .
i so gonna miss her lahh .
and kak aisyah also .
i will miss joking wif her .
gossiping too .
hahas .
actually i miss working there already .
i miss all the people there who almost all of them were like my mother .
and i've been spending alot but i will try to maintain my budget .
hahas .
my pay will be on the 5th of feb .
i'm so looking for it lahh .
spend spend spend and more spending again .
might be going to johor on monday
and shooping is what i want!
suppose on monday will be having picnic gathering but due to most of the family could not make it, we have to cancel it . :(
and i'm seriously starting anew!
moving on and won't be thinking of hym anymore .
i'm trying my best .
and i'm not gonna delude on myself again .

2009-01-03T05:13:00.000-08:00

the adorable twins !
i miss someone in here . some will know . :)

part off my heart and soul .
my sweethearts .

she's my dearest .

are they SUPER cute!

again!

they are the sunshine of our family .

the whole bunch of my nephews and nieces .!

they brought light to my cousin .

I finally meet up wif my beautiful darlink yesterday . Although it was just a short meet up, we still managed to crack a lotts of jokes . ALthough QUEEN NANA WAS SUPER LATE, we still managed to meet up though .And we know your reasons babe . dun worry . :)

with alot of people asking me when is the results. i super dunno when is it lahh .

and stop asking coz i really dun wanna think about it ! as i've said i will only think about it the day before the results are out . and i'm really scared lahh ! so for now and the last i dunno when it will be coming out!so dun bother asking lahh!

put up my neice and my nephews pictures, seriously i miss this bunch alotts .

i guess there's some conflict btw our families . that is why we have not been meeting up yet .i wanna a family gathering like we used to have .

when can it be our gathering again . ? when will all this conflicts end ??? i supperr miss the good old daes when we always had picnics and going to bowling alleys and play together . there's dis picture of my mother tongue classmates which somewhere inside i really miss someone inside . i dunno why eversince he went off, i can't keep hym out off my mind .when will you be back ? i truly miss you boi!

2008-12-31T16:25:00.000-08:00

before leaving bali .

3 out of 4 .

all thanks to khairul,i was shot candidly !

we cousins wif uncle johnny the driver .

me wif shades . :)

at changi airport.before we board the plane .

my auntie and her husband .

my beloved brother .

after a day of sea sports .
my brother being captured . :)
the first day that we arrived . captured by the seaview .
my beloved parents near the volcano eruption .

style isn't it?captured by my brother . :)

their language really make us laugh .

my brother enjoying the sunset .

the sunset in bali . nice isn't it?

i was being force to take .

i know i was lacking of updates but here am i updating eversince i came back from bali .

i really miss bali lahh! i wanna go again . we cousins actually dun wanna go back to singapore coz it was really a short trip .it was rather rarely of us going to a trip together . many pictures were taken but i only display some. got a messaged saying that he was going . last week was the day . after i got the messaged i was really crying while i told elly about it . thinking about it, i just can't help it but thinking that he's going for a few months i will really miss hym a lot which i am now . i actually did not want to reply his messages but i just replied "alright . enjoy urself and take care". juz a simple message coz i really dunno what to reply. and right now i guess i've been thinking of hym too much which really make me miss hym. well, now i know working life is hard .and i'm gonna get my pay soon! i'm gonna spend on myself after this . as days are going nearer, results will be out soon . i'm scared . i tried not to think about it but i will just countdown the days although i dunno when it will be coming out . i will just hope for the best as i had really work hard for it . i juz hope that i will make it to poly and continue my studies . i hope that i could make my parents proud . i think this will be a short entry for me .i will update soon if i have anything new . and and, i might be going out wif my girlfriends tomorrow . i hope we can make it . and to elly thanks for always giving me your outmost support and advices .i 'm really glad you were always there whenever i am down .

2008-12-04T03:50:00.000-08:00

went out wif this two monkeys for todae.the pantat's and the kentot's of the dae!:)

hahas..but they really make my dae la..

i will forget everything once i'm wif them.

had fun wif them esp wif both of them making faces and eventhough people were looking,we just dun care!

hahas..

as usual when i met hizan,i will usually tell the currents gossips and the problems that o'm facing.

it's the same for her also.

we can easily tell each other anything.

i sometimes would think again if we were still in secondary school.

i simply miss school!

i miss my class

i miss my teachers esp mdm soo's nagging and criticism.

i still remember all that.

i also miss ms liza's english lessons wif all the compo and comprehension that she would brush us before our O level.

and i especially miss mr gek's advices to us and having students who always escapes his maths remedial.

but he really know why we escapes.he's a great teacher!

and i truly miss my noisy and fun class of mine!

I miss 5A and i miss 4F'07.

i really wish time can turn back again.

and i truly miss hym veryyyyyyyyyyy muchhhhhhhhh!

2008-12-03T17:27:00.000-08:00

It's been weeks since i update my blog as i was busy working.

Didn't even have time to switch on the comp after i had come home from work.

so here am i updating since todae is my off dae.

A lot of things had happened eventhough it had been a dew weeks that i did not update.

making new frens at my work place was fun.

everyone knew how "mad" i am now.

hahahas.but i enjoy every single moment wif them.

And through working i can forget my problems which had always been a burden to me.

got news that he'll be away which i can't say for how long coz i already promised.

at first i was quite okay wif it but when i got to know about other things,i was totally dissappointed, sad and a lot more of feelings was filling my heart.

No one knows except for my dearest elly , and safita .

i was totally speecless when you told me that.i simply can't accept it.

Only wif elly's advice came across my mind.

she told me that he's worth waiting but sometimes i think that he's not worth waiting in concideration that he will last long.

i know that i should not continue waiting which some of my frens advice me to,but i just can't let go easily.

it's not easy to let go of someone you love for years.you'll experience it and you'll know.

i was deluding myself for months that i told some of you all that he's no longer in my life,but some of them know that i can't easily let go as i already love hym too much.

straightening my thoughts yesterdae nite,i think elly is rite!he's worth waiting.and i'll take things slowly. you guys can say that i'm selfish but love is blind . girls can easily fall for someone who is married, in a relationship,engaged. we girls just dun bother about what others will say.as long as we will gain happiness and worth waiting for, we dun mind to sacrifice.anything can happen in the future.everything is destined by god.he can only predict for us on what will happen in the future.

and people i'll be leaving singapore to bali in a weeks time.

and i super can't wait for the trip wif my precious loved ones!

2008-11-11T15:55:00.000-08:00

Yes i'm back!i know i went truly MIA for i dunno how many months.People have been urging and bugging me to update my blog but the only reason that i gave was ''i will only update after my O's.So here am i updating as the BIG O is finally over .All the books, all the mugging,all the homeworks and projects are finally over.I'll will be free from books from now on!ahahas .I know i have been missing a lot of outings wif my darlinks!I'm so sorry people!But from now on i can easily go out wif you guys.Just give me a date and i will guarantee you guys that i will ba hanging out wif you guys arite?
A lot of things surely had happened during this past few months.Loved ones passed away,a lot of sicknes, family ties which had been broken had finally been rekindled.And i'm happy for that.AS for my grandma who had passed away for alomost five months,i still miss her a lot though.i wish she were just here to listen to my woes and although i would always quarrel with her,i still love her.and truly i miss her alot!if she were here and see me sobbing and feeling sad,she would always be there for me.Sometimes i feel that it is a dream that had happened that she had passed away.sometimes when i think back,i just can't accept reality that she is gone.
but i will think again and remind myself that she really is gone by my side.all i could do is to pray for her and i know that she is happy over there.
Feelings are back again i guess.Some would know wat i am talking about.
only my dearest elly know how i am feeling coz she's also in the same boat as me.rite galfy?:)
now like finally you know how it feels rite?and now finally there's someone to share the same feeling as me..
ahahas ..
i guess what elly said might be rite that i only told them that i really dun have the feeling for hym but i guess it had not been moving away.i admit that i still like as nowadays we had been studying as a group.i'm sorry boy,i just could not forget about you.i tried so hard but i just could not do it.although you're attached,i dunno why buy everytime you will always be on my mind.the feeling just won't go away. but i'll try not to stay contact wif you coz i dun wanna be accused of being a third party of your relationship.continue your relationship.and i sure bet that you don't know that i still like you rite?i dun mind.i dun wish for you to know either.i wish you would be happy wif her and happiness will always be wif you guys.
alrite.i'm stopping here.i'll post again some other days.and i will continue blogging like last time!

2008-06-12T19:34:00.000-07:00

Back into blogging..

i've been MIAing for the past few weeks i guess despite the fact that people have been bugging me to update!hahas..

alot alot of things had happened during last month and this month..
grandma admitted to hospital and after that being discharged from hospital,she's so liveless.(that's what my uncle told us) sometimes she can be very demanding but i know that she could not help herself up sometimes..so what my mum and i do was to presevere despite all her sometimes nonsencical attitude which made us somehow angry with her..but i know that deep down in her heart she would not want us to help her..but no matter wat she's still my grandma who has bring me up eversince i was born..so i would like to take dis chance to take care of her until i could..

despite all the busyness at home,i still manage to go out w ith my frens..but not todae coz i can't leave my mum alone to take care of my grandma.i am really sorry arina and to those who are going to her pit..i really wish to go but i can't..sorry people..:( enjoy urself yeah!:)

i guess next week will be going out with my besties which include ERNIE as well!:)i guess it's been so long since i never met them..which i really MISS THEM ALOT ALOT!!!

the outing with sistersbiols i dunno when but i want the outing babes!I MISS YOU ALL DAMN MUCHH SEY!:)

and to hizan:whatever he says he wanna wait for you,let him wait..You need not feel pressurize or any feeling you feel like it..you did not promise hym anything so just let him wait..in my opinion if you really suddenly got feelings for hym,i guess you know wat to do rite?but my intuition says that you won't coz it's difficult for you to forget ENHK rite? so watever he tells you,you just treat it as you're talking to a friend which you have not met before.. dun worry babe!:) take it easy..:)

2008-06-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

[Verse 1]Raindrops, Fall From, EverywhereI Reach Out, For You, But Your Not ThereSo I Stood, Waiting, In The DarkWith Your Picture, In My HandsStory Of a Broken Heart[Chorus]Stay With MeDon't Let Me GoCause I Can't Be Without YouJust Stay With MeAnd Hold Me CloseBecause I've Built My World Around YouAnd I Don't Wanna Know What's It Like Without YouSo Stay with MeJust Stay With Me[Verse 2]I'm Trying And Hoping, For The DayWhen my touch is enoughTo Take The Pain AwayCause I've Searched For So LongThe Answer Is ClearWe'll be OK if We Don't Let It Disappear[Chorus]Stay With MeDon't let Me goCause I Can't Be Without YouJust Stay With MeAnd Hold Me CloseBecause I've Built My World Around YouAnd I Don't Wanna Know What's it Like Without YouSo Stay with MeJust Stay With Me[Verse 3]I've searched my heart overSo many many timesNo you and I, is like no stars to light the sky at nightOur Picture Hangs Out Of TuneRemind Me Of The DaysYou Promised Me We'd AlwaysAnd Never Go AwayThat's Why I Need You To Stay[Chorus]Stay With MeDon't let Me goCause I Can't Be Without YouJust Stay With MeAnd Hold Me CloseBecause I've Built My World Around YouAnd I Don't Wanna Know What's It Like Without YouSo Stay with MeJust Stay With Me[Fades]oooo.. oh ohdon't leaveso I stay waiting in the dark...

2008-05-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

thanks to elly suryani's partime job!(:

in our own world!(:

And yes of course our BusuK FaceS!:)

Like finally prelims over for now which i guess i can rest for the moment but not for long coz mother tongue's O is here.And i SUPER have to score for this paper coz i dun wish to retake..
After when back home todae,met my "LESBIAN PARTNER" ELLY SURYANI at compass point as usual.and off we went to tampines and we did our usual stuffs gossiped of course and also camwhoring...nyahahahaha..with all our BusuK FaceS!(: well,juz let the picture do the talking!(:

trying my best to forget you

but i guess it's a difficult task

for me to do it..

the more i hate you,

the more i'm loving you..

2008-05-01T06:28:00.000-07:00

I know i've been MIA for a few weeks...
been busy for the past few weeks and lotss of things had happened which i dun wish to elaborate in case some people would be very KPO to know..
Yes for ur info i like hym veryy muchh..
and i did something bold which i guess u also know..
i'm not surprised if you knew coz you're seriously one KPO QUEEN which you always wants to know everything..
and i guess you even pretended not to know who i like but i guess you already knew who i like...dun pretend you don't know when you had already knew a long tyme ago..
i juz hate you a hyprocrite like you is not worth befriending with..
YES I REALLY LIKE HYM!SO WHAT?IS IT A SIN?IS IT UR BUSINESS?JUZ DUN BE A KPO AND HYPROCRITE PERSON!I'M SICK OF LOOKING AT UR STINKING FACE TRYING TO ACT GOOD IN FRONT OF TEACHERS ALL ALONG!PLEASE LAHH!STOP ALL THIS AND TURN OVER A NEW LEAF!
if you guys are wondering who i am talking about..?
all i can say it's nobody...
but if any of the readers is reading dis post and you think i am talking about you,i guess you are really feeling th pinch and feeling that ur conscience is very guilty,i guess you're the person..
and btw to whoever i am refering to,for ur information i still like hym alott!
and now i have reveal dis,what are you gonna do? tell hym again? go ahead and tell coz i know you are always very KPO!(:

watever it is i juz can't avoid you always..
and for ur information,
i still like you alotts!

2008-04-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

Changed blogskin again..
hahahas..whenever i update i sure will changed it..
hahahas..
ya i know i'm laughing alotts nowadays..
coz i'm super happy!(:
only my closests frens will know about it!(:
like finally i've started msging hym
and i finally i built up my courage to talk and msged hym at the same time..
eventhough we juz started off as frens,i'm still glad...
and now i super miss hym coz he juz went overseas..
i guess i juz have to tahan until he's back..
hahahahas..
and i guess many people knew about it but i juz dun give a damn..
coz most of them can be trusted and i got nothing to worry about..
hahahahahas..
that's it..
take care people..
and i know it's a short post..
i'll update more when i'm free!(:

i super miss you boy..
take care when you're out..
i juz love the way we are now..
i juz hope this will not end..
and boy i love you so!(:

2008-04-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

I super wanna update my blog but i was so super busy wif studying and i'm some sort of lazy to update..hahahahas..

anw,on thursday was so supposed to go to my ex classmates chalet but my dad doesn't allow me coz i told him last minute.

so went home straight but at first i did not want to so called gf elly up but she did not answer..

so i had no choice but to go home..

but when i was about to reach home,she called me and ask me what i want?so told her that thought of going to her house coz i was SUPER bored at the moment but then told her again that i changed my mind coz i was about to reach home already.but she still insist on asking me to go..so quickly went home and askesd my mum if i could go her house and study?and my mum agreed.

so off i went to her house and upon reaching at compass point,met her there and she treated me me to chocolate eclair,THANKS GF!(:

Reached her house and start studying for a while.after that started camwhoring wif the laughter and the gossips wif her..

then i went off at ard 6.25i guess and she send me to the bustop and on the way home it started to rain and i was SUPER wet!:)

on conclusion,dis week was rather a hectic week for me and yesterdae i seriously had no mood to go to mendaki but still i went and i only did a bit of maths..

and todae went to my uncle's place after following my parents to a wedding..

home sweet home at 5p.m. coz my brother's gonna be back to his camp at nite..

so that's it..

i super miss you alot!

i didn't want to talk to you coz i

was not in a super mood on that dae,

even you came to school.

i'll try talking to you on one of this daes..

but no matter what,i still love you alotts!

2008-04-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

After looking through the pictures that we took on saturdae clearly and going out wif them,
i seriously don't know why i am feeling dis way..
am i being too sensitive?
or was i too jealous of them?
did i really make a mistake in loving you?
even if i were to regret,i could not turn back the clock now
coz i can't simply forget you that easily..
i did tried once,but it didn't work.
the more i tried to forget or hate you,you juz came into my mind automatically..
and everydae you came to my mind...
coming to 3 days you didn't came for skool including tomorrow.
i do miss you alot and alot but if you were to came to school,and seeing you wif her,i would seriously become frustrated and my jealousy woulf be different.
i seriously want this feeling to go but it cannot dissappear.
and it isn't the first tyme you talk to a gerl..
other girls i don't mind but this particular gerl,i seriously am jealous which i can't figure out why..
and now i juz want ELLY SURYANI to be here and lend me a listening ear..
i've got lots to tell you girlfriend!and i super miss you alotts seyy!
i've already to galfy NANA,and she had already told me wat to do..
and i'll try to do it gerl..thanks alotts for ur advices(: ....

2008-03-30T01:23:00.000-07:00

i suddenly had an urged of updating..

updating about yesterdae..

in the morning had mendaki and as always,i'm always latefor tuition and makes galfy amalina to wait for me every week..

hehehe..

bla,bla..studied maths and halfway thorugh i had no mood to do anymore maths while the rest are struggling to do..

maybe because i'm excited to go to the drama which is called "MAYAT"!

bla,bla,bla..

aftermath,went home and changed and my dad went to sent me to the skool bustop coz told them wait there..

then off we went to skool and cikgu was like super angry coz we're late..

hehehe..

reached there and while waiting for the drama to start,gf elly called and told her wat had happened to me!hahahas.. and there she was on the phone teasing me as usual when i always told her about hym..hahahas... And suuppose to sit wif mas but then mas wanted to switch seats wif abu,so they changed..and yes i did sit wif hym

bla,bla,bla..

watched the drama and through the ending it was so scary that almost all the girls screamed coz it was so scary that the "mayat" suddenly woke up!

hahahas..

aftermath,went back to skool and off i went home alone again..

and sehati sejiwa said to me"hope that the moment would stay"

and yes i too hope that would stay but then,all good things must come to an end..

and somehow i was jealous of someone and only adik amira knew it..

and thanks to hizan and sehati sejiwa for listening to my woes on friday night..

and truly i did have a good cry on them..

indeed i was happy

but only 1 person knew i was jealous of someone

and to think again,was i wrong to fall in love wif hym?

and will all my waiting of love for hym gonna be paid off?

when will it be?i'm waiting.

and no matter wat ansewr i'll get,

i'll accept it willingly.

and boy i still love you so.

2008-03-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

the reunion of us!

the gilers!

we're really mad!(:

formal of me and asyura but
there's a bird behind.(:

acting cute is our fort!(:

CREDITS TO KUEEN NANA!

the six of us!(:

okay people..i know i've not been updaing for a long tyme i guess..

hahahas..

people have been bugging me to update esp my galfy NANA

hahahas..

lots of things happened and i'm super busy to update wif tuitons aver mon&sat..

got to know about the competition results..

all i can say is you all had done well for the past few months.

don't give up coz there's always next year rite..

we know that you all had done ur best and no matter wat you guys are the best in our eyes.

and tests,tests,tests..

my head had been bursting wif all this..

talking about test,i'm not surprised if i were to flunk my maths test on last thursday coz the paper was tough and most of us did not studied..

hahas..

anw,that's it..

i'm done..

next sat will be watching a drama appreciation with the malay peeps together wif cikgu..

well,i really can say that i can't wait for it..

hahas..i guess some of you all will know why..

you will always be my sunshine

no matter what,i will always love you!(:

2008-03-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

Will be meeting my wonderful,giler,madness sisters tomorrow for ms fairy-queen's weeding which is also our
reunion tomorrow.We seriously is having a difficult gathering with the full of us so, tomorrow is the day for us to
reunite with all the kecohness again.Although i think it will be a short reunion,we would still manage to catch up
tomorrow.AND SERIOULSY ALL OF US COULD NOT WAIT FOR TOMORROW!and had conference talks wif them
juz now and it is really kecoh wif all the riddles going on..hahas.. SISTERBIOLS WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED BY ME!
(:

and boy,seriosly i miss you alots!
2 more days till school is reopen
and that will be that dae for me
to see you again.

2008-03-13T04:54:00.000-07:00

Decided to blog since a lot of people have been bugging me to update my blog.

So here am i blogging about the recent happenings that had happened for the recent weeks..
had sjab camp last week and all i could say is that this year's camp commitee is much more better than last year which almost all of us agree..although there are somethings that had happened during the camp which i would really not to mention,it still lingers in my mind on what had happened..And seriously the year 4s have already interefere too much in this camp and they interefere using the wrong method which i really must say..
and to that percon who did not went for nco course&camp,if you're not satisfied wif some of the year 3s attire,why is that their attire is acceptable during their camp and course?
please lah use ur bloddy brain and think before you talk..
ok enough of all this craps..

todae when out wif my raymond,safita,mas,ridhwan and my darling gf elly wif her boify imran my new friend made..hehehe..had lots of fun wif them and went watching step up 2 which had just open todae..and seriously the movie was hillarious and the dance moves made us go gagagah!aftermath seperate from the couple and i,raymond and ita went point to gey our so called snacks and to we went home..

and to elly suryani although it was just a short outing,i still managed to meet you after i dunno how many months i did not meet you and i did give you a big hug okay!(: but still i do miss you alot larh seyy and we did not gossip that muchh compared to last tyme..hehe..nevertheless i guess i'll be planning wif you again and meet up again and dis tyme round it's study tyme..and i truly hope that you will last long wif imran oke?(:

i seriously miss you though dis holidays..
will be waiting for school reopen(:

2008-02-29T05:29:00.000-08:00

HELLO readers!
i know i've not been blogging lately coz i've sooooo seriously buzy wif my stuffs seyy..
speech dae rehersals,remedials,studying and studying..
got back all the common test papers and seriously i did quite bad..adn it did come to me of giving up but then when i think again,i should not coa i'm gonna presevere all the way!
no mateer wat i'm gonna continue mugging until the end of O level..and talking about O level,i guess we have only about 7 months to go before the major exams starts..and mother tongue paper will start in another 3 more months which i seriously find the time flies so fast..
anw,will be starting mendaki soon which will be on next mondae and it will be without ELLY SURYANI!OH MAN!thought will be going through mendaki wif her again but too bad she has some other tuitions..but nvr mind,i guess i'll be meeting her to mugged together when the time really comes..and seriously i really damn miss her larh seyy!But i guess wif Putri and Amalina around,i guess it'll be fun too!:)
And seriously i've been missing my beloved sisterbiols for like i dunno how many months which we have not been meeting up!I seriously hope that we will be able to make a day out!(:

I super wanna have a talk wif you,
but it seriously is hard for me to start the conversation.

2008-02-15T04:21:00.000-08:00

i know we love to act cute(:
i luv her:)

crazy us!
minah toilet for the year:)
"ayam","sec1","teletubies"
the crzy people which brightens up my dae!:)

LOVES!(:
isn't she cute?:)
she's my sehati sejiwa partner!:)

my one and only brother!:)

alias kadir at dessaru.i know it's blurry(:

I know i've not been updating oftenly as i am seriously busy wif studies staying back almost everydae..and i've uploaded pictures which i have long wanted to..hahas..

and people have been asking me to update and here am i..alot of things have happened and seriously i'm sick of all these things which have been going on..

and to you!you seriously dun understand me at all!

And,And,And,i miss my darlings besties alots!and BNCO instructors+officers i miss you people alot2!i know i've not been coming for P.O.P as i seriously got a lot of things to fo during the weekends..be it tuition,remedials,religious projects which had not been done yet and common test which is just next week and i seriously need to pass the first common test!study,study,study! And mendaki girlfriends i seriouls miss you people alot!

will be waiting for mendaki to start again!

Elly Suryani:I know i've stood you up for a lot of times.Be it studying together and going out wif you.Coz serioucly i'm like super duper busy wif all my shedules during weekends and eventhough you dun say it,i know you're dissappointed wof me for stooding you up for like i dunno how many tymes i had done that.i'm sorry gf!i'll gurantee you that after 23feb,i'll be free and free from going to cca on saturday.And by then you can date me whenever you want aite gf!

And seriously thanks for the supports and advices when i needed a listening ear.You always are ready for any problems that comes my way.and IMYSFM oke gf!(:

and to you,my feelings for you had not faded yet.

i will always love you like when i first love you.(:

2008-02-01T05:13:00.000-08:00

Many things had been happening lately..

until many people ask me to update but i seriously had no tyme to update..

hahahas..sorry people..

i guess dis week is not really my week i guess..

some related people will only..

anw i juz wanna say thanks to my darling gerlfrens,babes,close friends,friends and those who had really comforted me that day..

thanks people!(:

without you guys,i really do not know who to turn to..

todae had cca and i really do not wish to to mention about what had happened todae..

all i can say is i am really dissappointed with you all and i'm not goin to mention names..

and i did scold you all wif a reason and not that i like to scold you all..

u all really must UNDERSTAND dis!

and it had already ended and i really hope things won't go wrong after what had happened todae..

i really dun wish to..

i know that maybe i have been changing

but because of you,i still do not know if

i should accept someone but because of you,i still have my doubts..

2008-01-26T23:03:00.000-08:00

Hello people!
have been missing a lot of entries this past few weeks!
hahahas..
have been super duper busy and somehow i was lazy to update..
hahahahas..
well past few days have been rather a very hectic and enjoyable week for me and some bitter memories..
and to my dearest hizan and nana,watever you all choose,i'll always support you guys..
cheer up aites!
yesterdae had promotion interview and after that had to go to Bedok View as the trainees had POP training..at first we intend not to go but when the officers said we must go back,we had no choice but to go back..
haix..
but nevertheless we got to know our post for the actual day of the POP..
then ended at 3 but we had to stay for meeting but before that they told us there's no meeting so i went to call my dad and say he could fetch me already..
then last minute they say must stay..
so i stayed for a while and when my dad msg me,i told them that i must go so off i went..
and seriously i have no idea of wat i wanna post now..
and on friday i was told that he was absent..so yeah...i guess he was on mc then..
hahahas..

ur smiles really melt my heart melt..
although you did not notice how i look at you,
i dun mind and all i know was u're the one for me..

2008-01-03T04:35:00.000-08:00

I seriously miss you boy...
i tried forgetting you but somehow i can't do it...
as days past by i kept thinking about you..
i seriously luv you boy..
but somehow i miss you alot alot..
somehow u are giving me a false hope..
but i dunno about you..
i just want an answer from you..
but seriously i lurve you!:D

2007-12-15T18:56:00.000-08:00

i super gonna miss dis peeps can!

my group hawk!,the basics nco instructors and my beloved hizan..

all the tears that we shared during the last dae of camp is really unforgetable..

everything that we shared during the camp is always kept in our heart..

everything happened so fast andit ended too fast..

yesterdae the basic trainees had their exam and i guess we're gonna see each other for the last tyme during the POP which is next year..

how late can it be..haissh..

it's ok...

watever it is all good things will have to end..

and results will be out in another 2 days..

how fast can it be..

and waiting for it is such a torture..

i super gonna miss you..

i think my heart had change to another person

i'll know...

but will be meeting you again but it will be a long wait from now..

2007-12-03T16:36:00.000-08:00

Have not been blogging for a week plus i guys..

i have been super busy wif nco course,meetings and the upcoming camps which the precamp is just tomorrow..

the cadets will be booking in on thursday then..

Saturday

They had Nco course 2 in the morning and all the way till evening..

after they had been dismissed,the instructors and together wif the commitee members had to stay for the meeting..

well something happened and my dad was SUPER angry as it finished late..

and he decided to called the one in charge which i will not mention names..

and i was SUPER guilty when my dad talked as in a very angry manner to the in-charge..

i seriously did not want my dad to called him but he insisted...

bla,bla,bla...

after all those talking i just could not imagined wat would happened the next dae as we instructors were supposed to meet them at ubin as there was a prehike..

i just could not face hym muchh..

Sunday

Woke up early in the morning,took a bath and prepared to go to ubin for the prehike..

and we had to cycle for the prehike..

CYCLE?i could not cycle lahh..

but there's no choice but i had to..

hahahas..

at first i was supposed to ride a single bike but i could not balance as i had not cycle for the past 10 years on my own..

so seriously i said,i could not do it..

so they ask one of them to ride the two seater wif me but could not do it also..

Suddenly,it came a bike wif 3 wheels...

so i decided to ride it..

at first it was okay..

but when we ride to the steep slope,i had difficulty cycling it..

so i had to push it..

but all thanks to AIK SENG SIR,BANGBANG SIR,JORELLE,HAN WEI SIR,SIAN LIAN SIR AND THE OTHER OFFICERS AND TO THE 5 GROUP INSTRUCTORS FOR ALL THE MORAL SUPPORT AND HELPING ME UP WHEN I HAD THE MINOR INJURY!I'M TURLY TOUCHED!AND WE TURLY HAD DIS TEAMWORK SHOWN TO THE OTHERS!AND NO MATTER WAT I STILL ENJOYED THE TRIP EVENTHOUGH WITH ALL THE INJURIES..FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART,THANK YOU PEOPLE!

Monday

the cadets are making the banner so the instructors came down and see their teamwork for the day..and truthfully,i seriously enjoy looking at the teamwork that hawk and falcon is doing for their banner..

well tomorrow i'm already in camp for six days..

so will not be updating then..

will update when i'm back..

have my feelings for you had fade?

have i turn to another person

or did i fall for someone who is nic to me?

i'm confused

the more he's nice to me

the more my feeling for hym is deeper..

have i really fallen for hym?

2007-11-19T21:37:00.000-08:00

Am i such a bothersome who likes to meddle with other people's business?
i'm so sick of it lahh.whenever i'm helping someone,it turns out that the person is not happy wif me.even if you did not say so,i could sense it.you have been giving me the cold shoulder eversince it happened.
FINE!if you people have any problems or wat,just dun come to me!i've enough of it.I CAN'T TOLERATE DIS ANYMORE!Be it ur my close fren or a normal fren,i DUN CARE!
I"M SICK AND TIRED OF TOLERATING DIS KIND OF PROBLEM ALREADY!I JUST DUN WANT TO BE BOTHERED ANYMORE!DO ANYTHING YOU LIKE LAH!

2007-11-16T19:43:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i feel that we are more fortunate to have the people around us being concern.Be it our parents,friends or anyone around.Most people thinks that whenever they saw most couples nowadays in a relationship,they would be jealous or even envious of someone and they would think why would not they too are in a relationship?
Hmm,i'm sure most teenagers nowadays would want a relationship but they do not think of the consequences that would occur to them.Maybe they think that when the oppsote sex introduces their partner to the parents it will be better.But some parents will say" why are you in a relationship when you're still schooling"?But this is the modern era,parents need to understand that it's not like those old fashioned type when they use to be going to school to study and no romance.But when it comes to teenagers nowadays,they just don't bother what their parents are saying.
YES!maybe it's alrite if parents would know our relationship but there is sure to be some disadvantage when parents already knew our relationship.For example when they knew that there are some problems between the couple and the other party would like to breakup with the opposite sex and here comes the problem when parents object of them to breakup.The parents have to understand that although they object of them breaking up,can they bare to let the son or daughter to get married or engaged to the one that they don't love anymore?I'm sure all parents would not want this to happen to the kids rite?
Well,this is wat happen when parents know about ur relationship.
And i hope that after giving u advices to u and ur mum,i hope that ur mum should accept the fact that you and him could no longer be together and it also goes to the opposite sex and the family.Well,if he still loves you,i'm sure he would be happy when u're happy rite?
And i know elly u're gonna read this.For once and thet last time,you have to solve the problem and not running away.Its no use running away when you have not settle ur problem.Maybe now your mum would not accpt him but i'm sure as time goes by and after ur problem and him had ended,i'm sure ur mum will accept him no matter what.And also you have to convience ur mum that your old habit will not happen again and no more lies&creating amy story will happen again.You have to convience ur mum that it will not happen again and make her believe that you will repent.You may think that i will not forgive you of watever some stories you have created but for your information,i will forgive watever that you had told me coz i'm sure you will change and begin a new chapter rite?No matter what i will still be willing to listen to your problems in watever circumstances it may be.I just want you to settle this problem and not to run away from the problem again aites.I will have faith in you and will support you in watever decision you make aites GF?

things have beem well for meduring this holidays
but thinking of you seems to be no ending.
i've been thinking of giving you up
but i just can't give you up or either forget you.

2007-11-14T19:13:00.000-08:00

And yes!
My Beloved Brother is finally home yesterdae..
hahas..
Finally he's home and thre goes the kecohness at home..
wif hym being around at home,things seems to be happening at home..
hahas..
Yesterdae was totally not my dae lah seyy..
my mood was alrite,but due to some reasons,suddenly i keep thinking of something which i'm avoiding nowadays...
he(someone which i will not mention and only certain pple will know)had ask me some question which i find it all of a sudden and i think it's too fast isn't it?i'm just not ready for anything..i didn't know you for long and suddenly you ask me this?OMG!i thought i would have someone to share my problems of wat i'm having but NO,it seems that you want us to go through a deeper relationship?that's a NO,NO to me..It's too fast!Even if i accepted you,my heart will not be wif you but wif someone else..so why bother if we are in the relationship?it would either hurt you and make me suffer everytime i'm talking to you?it's no use rite?i know u're not goin to read dis,but i hope that u will understand that i'm not ready to be in either a relationship wif you or anyone else..i know you will tell me that you demand a explanation of why i'm doin dis to you or either you say i'll be selfish to you but the fact is my heart is not open for any guys except hym..
maybe he have hurt me and i've already spend all the tears on aguy like hym,but as long as i'm satisfied wif wat i want and without hym knowing,i dun mind..
so i hope you will understand the decision i'm making is for my own happiness and my own future.Watever you say will not affect me in any way..

and to you my beloved one,
maybe i know how i am to you.
but i will still continue to wait even
if it was in the future.

2007-11-09T03:24:00.000-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!(:

YEAH!the dae that i've been waiting for is finally here..
coz todae went out wif my beloved besties+ELLY SURYANI!
todae woke up early coz as usual went for my morning jog which i had never mention in any of the entries..hahas..
then met ELLY under my block and off we went to j8 and took bus 88..
inside the bus,she told me all her problems and i told her some advices which i hope to be helpful to you ok gf?
yes!there was some parts that she cried but i dun mind and i told her that you could cry now but not anymore after this coz it's useless to cry for a guy who does not appreciate you and playing behind ur back..although i'm not sure if you still love hym,it is even not worth it to waste ur tears for a guy like hym..
and i know you got a whole list of problems which include ur parents esp ur mum but u have to get to the bottom of dis problem and not avoid it..i know that you do not know how to brought up the subject to ur mum,but she still have to know that dis concerns ur happiness and ur future..even if ur mum objects or the other side object that both of you should not broke,they still have to accept it..i know you won't want the both sides to be unhappy but u have to think about urself before you think about others.Maybe u're willing to sacrifice ur happiness and ur future but are you willing to marry a guy who always give you tears and unhappiness in the future?think about it..i'm sure ur mum would like to see you being happy wif the one you love and not to suffer over a guy that simply gives u tears rite?well,watever ur decision you make,i'm sure ur mum will slowly understand wat u're goin through..and no matter wat problem u're having dun keep it to urself..i'll always be willing to lend you my ear and give you some advices eventhough it dun worth much alrites..

back to the topic..arrive at j8 and waited for them..when everyone had arrived,we procceded to buy the tickets and we watched BEE MOVIE!
hahas..it's damn funny lah..the movie started around 1.50 and ended around 3.15..
den went to library coz we wanna borrow some books and seperated wif my two darlinks around 3.50..elly and i took 156 back home while she go and meet her ''ehem ehem''.reached home around 4.20..
hmm that's about it..and i hope ELLY SURYANI u will cheer up alrites?(:
and photos will be up soon elly suryani update her blog..
and all of a sudden i miss my brother who is at the forest serving his National Service:(
be back soon yeah bro!

i keep wondering as each dae passes,
when will we meet again?
i juz can't help but not to forget you eventhough how
hard i tried but you simply can't get out of my mind

2007-11-07T23:21:00.000-08:00

Woke up early in the morning for the intention of going jogging wif my brother but the morning weather was not that good as it seems that it was goning to rain so we didn't went..
stayed at home then told my brother if he wanted to play PS3 as my parents had gone to the market and buying our breakfast..
so he said to me to take a bath first then we can play thePS3..as usual he was the one who started playing first while i juz looked at hym playing while browsing through the papers..he played around 4 hours..then he stoped playing as my dad wanted to watch the tv and my brother wanted to take a nap..
so i together wif my parents watch the tv and after a while my parents wanted to take a nap..
so after that,i took the chance to play my own game which was the tony hawk's game..
played for around 2 hours plus as my dad wanted to watch the repeat of the scv 8 o'clock show..so after that did not wanted to play anymore coz i was on the phone wif my bestie..

after that switch on the com and when to my blog+my gf blog's..
reading her blog,i could sense that she's having a hard tyme handling all her problems..
never mind..tomorrow should be the dae that u will pour everything that u have kept for the past few days or should i sae weeks?
cheer up aites gf?
u will always have a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on whenever you need one aites..

i miss you so..
i really do..
listening to the instumental songs make my tears drop..
wondering how u were..

2007-11-06T22:41:00.000-08:00

Although i was only in dis class for 2 years,
i had some sweet&bitter memories when i
was in dis class..
And i miss the atmosphere of dis class
whenever the teachers will be shouting at
the class but most of the teachers says
that we are the lovable class and wat ms
liza says ''ONE DIE,ALL DIE!"

YES!this are the people which i will be going to
the movies on friday plus ELLY SURYANI
if she could make it on that dae and i seriously
hope that you could..and they are being missed
by ME!

yes!i was the one who called you..
although i could only hear ur voice for a second
i was still contented..

2007-10-30T19:01:00.000-07:00

i just miss dis people lah!

Finally!

Had just finished changing my blogskin..

blogger is making my blog in a mess!

with all those messes,i had not been in a mood to update my blog and to change my blogskin..

but never mind,it's ok rite now..

well, haven't been blooging this pass 3+ weeks maybe..

A lot of things had happened..

Graduation lah,No skool for us,hari raya wif frens+family&relatives bla, bla,bla...

hari raya dis year does not seems so enjoyable as the years used to be..

esp wif my relatives...

we used to go in a big group wif 4-5 cars but dis year it seems that everything had changed..

together wif my cousins which we used to be very,very closed...but somehow the only cousin that i'm closed wif is wif my last uncle's daughter+son..

i dunno wat's happening to our togetherness and the getting of close relationship wif my cousins...

how i wish it would be like the passed years which we use to have gatherings like going on a holiday toghether,slacking at each other houses,playing bowling+dinner together...

i just miss the fun we had..

hmm...how times flies and how people changes dis few years..

also have been going out wif my mum&my besties quite often nowadays but not that often coz they are having exams+skooling..

so juz have to wait for the holidays and we truly can enjoy ourselves to the max!

will be going out wif my two beloved mendaki girlfrends dis coming tueseday or monday and we're gonna watch movie!The game plan which will be out in 1st november..

hmm..

i'm excited!

and it's been a bloody long time since i saw my ELLY SURYANI which is always busy wif her jalan-raying i think almost everyday rite girlfren?

hahas..

but never mind,we're gonna catch-up on the lattest Gossips+jokes and laughters wif them..

but too bad i dun think faizah will be able to make it..

and putri the ''businesswoman'' wouldn't be able to go as she is busy wif her werk always..

i think we should make a gathering for our mendaki-mates as well rite people?

thats's about it!
will be going jalan-raying wif my besties again on friday..
and stay-tuned for more pictures..

everyday i just think about you

i just miss you

and my feelings for you had fade eversince the dae that i loved you

2007-10-02T00:24:00.000-07:00

Actually i wanted to blog yesterdae..
but i juz do not have any mood..
haissh..
only some pple will know whyye..
Eversince i came back to skool yesterdae,my tears had beem flowing since then...
when i went home wif amira,she saw it but i juz deny..
then when my darlin call me,she spoke to amira first and then amira told her i was in tears...
but still i juz deny...
went back home with a happy face but my heart was crying inseide..
i pretended to be happy infront of my mum..
then my grandma did her nonsense again..
i was the one who tolerated her nonsense..
but somehow i juz can't help but to scream at her..
and i know she old,so i juz gave in..
then after buke,it was me again who was in the wrong juz because of wat my grandma did..
i juz felt it was so unfair..
why am i always the one at fault?
and to who it may concern,
it seems that i could feel that you already know..
and i can feel that you seems to avoid me..
if u were to ask me if i like you..i would say YES!
i do like you..it's not a sin rite to like someone..
i really can't take it no more when you treated me like that..
i know i'm not anything to you but if you treat me as ur fren pls dun act as if you dun know anything..
you think i dun know wat you and ur fren was saying...
I"M NOT STUPID LAH!i can see wif my eyes of how you reacts..
i juz can't help it but cry as much as i had never cried before..
and i dun ever cry for a guy before..
and you're the first and last guy i would cry..
I TRIED FORGETTING YOU!
BUT IT SEEMS THAT IT DOES NOT WORK!

YOU DO NOT RESPOND!
I'M SICK AND TIRED OF WAITING!
BUT MY HEART JUZ SAY CONTINUES WAITING
COZ MAYBE ONE DAE I'LL KNOW THAT YOU WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH
BUT IS IT TRUE THAT IF I CONTINUE WAITING,WILL MY PERSEVERANCE BE PAID OFF?
I'VE BEEN CRYING ALL NITE!
BUT WILL MY TEARS BE WORTH FOR YOU?

2007-09-29T02:02:00.000-07:00

it's been a a few days since i updated my blog...
had been mugging hard for the upcoming N level whcih is dis mondae
OMG!time flies so fast and it will also be the end of our fasting month which is in another 13 more days..
and last thursday was the last day for us the normal acad&tech...
so yeah!
we only need to come back for our graduation ceremony which is on 16 october..
so yesterdae i juz stayed at home studying ans yes!
my brother is finally back from his two weeks of NS!
muahahaha!
and i seriously could not recognise hym when he was back..
from his white skin he changed to the darker side..
which is really3 different and unexpected...
together wif his botak head he seriouslt look like my uncle..
hahahas...
and after that chatted wif my brother and mum about the experience my brother went through..
hahas..
dis is juz 2 weeks...
wat will happen to hym when it's 2-3 months..
how will he become?
more thinner and more fitter!
hahas..
And todae had mendaki..
and todae was the last dae of mendaki..
haix..
gonna miss my girlfrens veryy muchh together wif mr hafiiz and mr sharizan..
they are the best!
and putri didn't come todae as she said she got something on and saying that she was a busy "businesswoman"
hahahahahas!
and to ELLY SURYANI was so HYPER-ACTIVE!
until amalina,faizah and i really could not stand it..
while we were doing our own self studies she was so HYPER that she could not stop talking since we started mendaki..
hahahahas!
then something happened..
which i should not mention..
well ELLY SURYANI suddenly u went quiet we were so shocked...
and we know how you felt and you were keeping all quiet so sudden because of something..
well!cheer up GF!
although we dun quite know wat actually u were thinking,but you must always remember that we ur MENDAKI GF will always be lending you our ears to let you pour out ur woes!
ALRIGHT GF!(:
after that msg elly,and she told me she's already alright and she told me she's already alright..
i juz hope so..
dun keep ur feeling ok GF!ILY LAH GF!
and also we did some phototaking wif mr sharizan &the class..
and we the MENDAKI GF also did some phototaking in the toilet...
hahahahas...
and not to forget our shopping spree after N LEVEL ELLY SURYANI!
muahahahaha!
juz can't wait lah!
and yeah!
i'm going for Basic NCO to be an instructor i guess..
hmm...i'm feeling a bit of scared too...
well that's about it..
take care!(:
much loves!:)

was it just my wishful thinking?
should i give up on you?
but i really can't give up on you
but seeing you treating me like dis,
should i move on without ur love?
i really need an answer from you:(

2007-09-17T03:43:00.000-07:00

hmm..
it's been a verrrrryyyy long time since i blog...
hehe...
avtually wanted to change my blogskin but i was kinda lazy..
hehe=P
been rather busy nowadays especially when my major exam that is N LEVEL is another 2 more weeks left...
and that will be the end of our examinations..
YEAH!
and that means also we need not be coming to skool too!:D
and i'll be missing hym too!
haix...
all i want hym to tell me is that he had already know how i felt and i want to know his true feelings about me too..
will i get to know it before the end of the skool dis year?
after went to the canteen to look for my darling nana and my cutiepie amira as amira wanted me to coached her in her studies...
actually we wanted to stay at skool but suddenly my darling hinted to me that she saw HYM
and yes!
i was so super,hyper happy when i saw hym!
hehehe..
after that i told them to go to somewhere so that we can study...
so yeah we went to the same place...
then while we were chatting suddenly amira said that one of the clerk in our skool mum's had passed away...
haix..
how sad can it be...
and so as we wanted to meet one of the daughters,so went to the blok and we waited for about 45 mins till we meet one of them..
and after everything ended,we decided to go home around 3.30...
and so me and amira went to took 112..
but as we were waiting for quite long,suddenly 113 came and as i was looking through the bus,i suddenly saw HYM!
i wanted to laugh but i juz avoid myself from laughing..
but somehow when i turn to hym,he was also looking...
and there it was,our eyes was staring at each other until the bus went off...
YEAH!
i juz love this dae lah sehh!!
and yeah!
that was my dae...
and i hope that everydae could be like dis always:D

i love this dae 170907
and i hope through dis we could be frens
i hope you're not shy wif me anymore..
and i want to know had you already know
how i felt about you?
i want to know..
and also know that i will always love you!

2007-09-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

had not been blogging lately
as i was busy mugging for my N level!
and yeah!
the first 3 papers which i hope i could score very,very well is finally over!
and a lot of things had happened for the past few weeks..
part of it maybe it's related wif hym
i dunno if my sixth sense is true or not
but somehow i feel that he already knew about how i feel about hym
but i find it that maybe it's good that he know...
but on the other hand i'm scared if he would give me the cold shoulder once he know the truth..
can you juz tell me have you knew the turth on how i feel about you?
i want the answer from you...
can i?
i really wanna know how u felt..
dun keep me waiting can?
i dun want to cry at nites no more..
i juz want an answer from you..
i seriously fall deeply for you..
and i even wrote about the essay of the N level paper about you..
coz there's something about admiring someone and why is someone special to you..
and i really3 worte about you..
and i also found out you wrote the same question as me..
but can i know who the someone special is?
is it someone you like?
who's she?
can i know?
i dun want any false hope..
but for you,i'll continue to wait..
and i have to continue mugging for the rest of the N level paper which is on october..
and after that i'm free from books!
yeah!

will you give me a hope?
when is it?
dun give me the cold shoulder
i'm scared that u're gonna give me false hope..
i juz want an answer from you
can i?

2007-08-24T03:48:00.000-07:00

It's finally over!
i had been telling myself to hold on
but i could no longer hold on
and i decided to tell hym the truth...
i know maybe some of you would think that i'm cruel but i juz do not want to suffer anymore..
but the fact is i do not have any kind of feelings for hym...
it's also a very difficult decision for me to break the news to hym..
but somehow i did make up my mind and told hym..
and in my previous entry,i did sae that i tried loving hym...
and yes!
i tried loving hym but it could not happen...
it's not because of my crush...
but it's juz because that i felt that we dun have the feeling of a couple should have..
so i juz thought that we should end it..
i juz hope that u understand...
i juz hope that u'll find ur happiness and ur dream gerl..
i wish u all the best!

And yes!
tomorrow is saturdae!
and means that i'll be having mendaki!
and meeting my girlfrens!
yeah!
i so love and miss my girlfrens lah!
and i so hope that faizah will be hyper like she use to be!
and not be like last week!
I WANT THE HYPER-ACTIVE FAIZAH!((:

because of you i did that
coz i could not forget you at all..
my love will not fade away and
will continue to wait as now we are making
a progress..
i juz hope that we will know each other's feelings..

2007-08-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

it had been 5 days only
and i had been able to give hym the love that he wished for...
i thought i could forget my crush but i juz could not..
somehow i felt that things had been going well between my crush and me..
and somehow i felt happy but not when i'm wif hym...
i seriously do not want to be in this relationship anymore
i juz dun wish to hurt hym or tell hym that i luv hym outside but actually i dun love him in the inside ..
i tried luving you but i juz could not love you wholeheartedly..
although i tried luving you,but i found out that my love for you was only like a friend love...
i juz do not want to continue like dis..
i have been avoiding ur calls eversince yesterdae+todae
i seriously want to break the news to you that i want you to let me go and tell you the truth that i actually dun have any love for you..
i accepted you because i wanted to know that if i could forget my crush but i could not REALLY!
i tried my best!
but do you know that i really tried my best!!!
yes!
you did wake me up by asking me to wake up from my dream and face the reality and yes i did it!
but i could not forget hym,and nowadays he's like hinting to me that he would like to start a conversation wif me,but somehow something stop us from talking to each other face to face...
and i really want to tell HAIKAL that i do not love hym but i do not know how to start the conversation or should i juz msged you that it will be better that we'll juz be frens?

i need advices
i need a listening ear!
who could it be?
i wanted to call my gf,elly and tell her
but i know that she's now struggling for her prelims
so i should not disturb her..
maybe i'll juz wait for saturdae and pour all my woes to her..
and to elly,i tried to love hym,but it did not work...
should i juz end it?

2007-08-20T04:11:00.000-07:00

haix...
yesterdae was our dae
19/807
i did not know if i made the rite decision?
but from wat elly said is rite,maybe i should try it out wif hym
maybe i'll gain happiness and forget hym
i dunno wat my feelings were like...
somehow i could not forget hym
whenever i saw hym,
i juz could not resist and i admit that i still like hym very muchh
maybe i do have a bit of feelings for the current one but not as strong as my love for hym
i'm juz confused wif my own feelings...

watever it is i hope i could forget you and carry on wif my blissful life with the current one i hope...

i hope to forget you
but can i?
how could i forget you when you're always on my mine?

2007-08-17T22:48:00.000-07:00

it' saturdae again..
as usual it was mendaki again..

and i juz loved my gfs more and more everydae
when we were having maths,somehow i did not have not any mood as i was thinking about wat had happened around 1 plus in the morning...
And suddenly my gf,was asking about my problem that i had updated at my last entry..
and so i told her the whole story and she listened very diligently and on the between of our conversation she did gave me a few advices and the steps on how i should tell hym...
After telling her about my problem,i felt very glad...

AND THANKS FOR ALL THOSE ADVICES ELLY!
AKU SAYANG AWAK ELLY!

then after our break was science..
and there goes our laughter wif putri around
whenever mr hafiiz was teaching,she was always caught talking wif us..
hahahas..
and after that she could still continue wif all her jokes..
hahas...
and we finish our science lesson quite early so after that we had our own time wif all the jokes and laughters..
hahahas..
i juz loved you guys lah!

and now i'm talking to haikal..
haix...
i juz told hym that i'm not ready for this relationship..
and he said that he'll wait?

maybe i'll tell you how i wish to know you better
will you accept how i feel?
i juz want the answer from you..

2007-08-16T02:06:00.000-07:00

Haissh..
skool todae was so sucky can!
i totally hate dis skool so muchh!
as the daes goes by,i'm beginning to HATE dis skool and the discipline have become more stricter and more lamer!
during FRC juz now she greeted us so as usual the sec4 and 5 wil surly keep quiet...
so there was dis group of sec 3s who was making fun of the greeting and dragging the gretting..
hahahas..
but juz because of that,the VP told mr neo to get the cane prepared...
WTH!
juz because of a small thing and the matter became a big issue!
WTH!
it does not make any sense at all..
sometimes i think that it's so unreasonable lah!
we greet also wrong..
we never greet also wrong!
AIYOH!
so dis three guys got caned and i should not mention who they are..
and now most of the students are making this issue the hottest topic!
haix..
and i juz got to know that my brother also got caned when he was in secondary 4 and it was not his fault too and he got the caning from his discipline master and although it was not in public,somehow the did not inform my parents that he was gonna caned my brother!all my brother did was looking at his frens playing cards!
WTH!
SO unfair leh!
and the guys who got caned in my skool,their parents was not even told upon hand that the discipline commitee is gonna caned them..
how unreasonable can skool's in singapore be???!

i juz miss you!
must i make the first move so that u could continue?
i really3 hope that u will know it!
but when is it?
i seriously want you to be mine!
and my love will not fade even for a second!
i love you!

2007-08-15T02:34:00.000-07:00

my cute little niece

Skool was alrite juz now...

first thing in the morning we had english...

and out of apology,ms liza gave jasline two bars of the chocolate toblerone

hahahas...

and she told us if we wanna get those chocolates,we muct let her pinch us and we must cry..

hahahahas..

wat a joke!

anyway she was juz kidding...

then during assembly,we need not go to the hall as we need to do abouth the NE thingy so we went to comp lab 1 to do that quiz...

after that,we were released earlier than the skool as we had finished doing the quiz..

so after skool went to look for ms liza and ask her if we are having english remedial..

actually we're supposed to have,but she said she'll go to the class at 2.30 and see if there's anyone in class..

if there's no one,we'll do the mock test on friday..

hahas..

so not long after that jing called and ask me if there's any remedial...

so i said no and she also told me that most of the class had went hm...

so the whole class went off...

hahahas..

this is wat we called "one die all die"

hahahas..

then i, hizan& nana were waiting for amira to finish all her things..

as i was so bored i juz listened to her songs and flip through the teenage pages..

i saw the horoscope page..

i read the horoscope about the month of his birthdae..

after reading it,i somehow felt down..

i felt that as if i would tell hym about my feelings towards hym,i think his reactions will be shocked?or wat?

i'm not sure...

although u pple can say i'm supersticious...

but i juz can't help but feel that wae..

when i was listening to dis malay song,somehow my tears flowed down slowly...

nana asked me but i juz denied..

somehow,i juz wanna know how he felt about me?

yes!

i want hym to be happy,but am i the one who always have to suffer because of you?

haix..

i really am feeling down and i never have this kind of feeling of someone i love before..

i juz hope that the next dae will be another happiness but not sadness((:

i juz want some love and concern from you

am i always the one that have to make the first move?

why not you?

i've been waiting for that dae..

but will it come true?

2007-08-14T01:03:00.000-07:00

Todae skool was great!
Had a talk by the student care centre or somethin like that..
hahas..
den had mother tongue after which was chemistry and i noticed that whenever it was chemistry lesson,mrs ang will always be frustrated wif our class as most of us are not paying attention to her lesson but soon the noise subsided and it was back to normal lesson..
after that had CME but it will be changed to POA as it will be mdm soo's lesson so she changed it..
haix..
after recess was english for 2 periods and we had to finish the cloze passage for every year..
hmmm..
managed to finish all,and suddenly something funny happened...
MS LIZA PINCHED JASLINE!
hahahahas
and we called it STUDENT ABUSED!
hahahas...
actually it was not jasline's fault but danwei..
hahahas...
after pinching jasline,she suddenly broke into tears..
haix..
coz ms liza's pinching was so painful that she could not bare wif the pain..
haix..
and ms liza was so shocked that jasline broke into tears..
hahahahas..
den she quickly coaxed her and told her not to cry and stuffs..
hahahas..
from her crying,jasline then turn into laughter...
hahahas...
we were all laughing so wholeheartedly until we could cry...
hahahas..
den we had maths lesson..
ok lah not that bad..

after skool when to comp lab 3 to have our POA mock exam..
was kinda orites lah..
except the last question which most of us could not do...
haix..
nvr mind lah..
tml after english remedial will be having poa mock exam again but paper2 dis time round..
home swit home 4

i miss you
how long must i presevere for you?
can you tell me one dae?
but no matter wat i love you lots!

2007-08-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

Had not been blogging for the past one week..
somehow i did not had any mood to blog and i was truly lazy to blog..
hehes..
for this one week i had been having some confused thinking...
somehow i juz could not stand how you treated me and as if i was invisible to you..
but i did not bother coz my love for you was really,really,really deep...
somehow i juz could not resist on teeling you how i felt about you..
but thinking back again,i still have my dignity as a gerl of not confessing my love to you..
although i had to suffer,but seeing you being truly happy,i'm happy too..
i juz want to watch you from afar will be a great day for me....
i remembered that you did not came to skool,and i was feeling truly restless...
even my sehati sejiwe girlfren notice that i was feeling rather different that dae..
all because you did not came to skool..
but i juz presevere as i knew that you would be coming to skool the next dae..
haix...
only my sehati sejiwe gerlfren,naNa and my partner in class knew how i truly felt...
they juz gave me the support asking me to presevere and wait for you..
haix...
enough of all my sadness about you..

well had mendaki as usual
and together wif my gerlfrens,todae was menguap-ing day for us as we were really very sleepy todae in class..
but although we are sleepy,somehow todae we were paying attention in class..
hahahas..
we did our maths and science subject and we finish lesson early and we did have free time on our own and also we did talk to the teahers todae too..
hehes..
after mendaki,went hm and my parents were not hm yet...
so i was left all alone at home..
after they came back,my dad sent my mum to the mosque and my brother and i followed her..
after that went to sent my grandma to geylang and off we went to compass point as my brother wanted to treat us to burger king as it was hos pay day!
hahahas..
and all the meal he ordered was upsizeD!
hahas..
so after that took my mother home and home at 4.30..

rite now i'm feeling so sick!
had my flu and sore throat!
argh!
i truly hate dis sickness!

will you know how i feel?

i want you to know

sometimes i'm sick of waiting

but i juz presevered for you...