Those were the mom ents, love
Saturday, March 28, 2009
2:57 AM
pointless,moodless and everything .
it juz wasn't what i wanted .
i didn't enjoy . nothing .
no one knows anything .
it's all deep down .
dun wish to mention anything .
mood swings maybe?
but maybe its not .
dun wish to say anything .
its pointelss .
no one knows how it feels .
do whatever you guys wanted .
i dun bother already .
and i might be MIA-ING for a while .
seriously,its pointless to say .
might be changing my number soon .
will update some relevant people only .
dun bother asking .
i'm sick and tired of everything .
and things is juz not in the way that i wanted .
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
10:33 PM
super shagged .
me!
dearests .
loved them .
kentot and pantat .
the most funnniest thing that happen here . :)
us again .
the group photo . :)
wanted to update yesterday but as the photos were send late by kentot,so decided to update todae .
went out wif the kechorable dearests again yesterdae .
the plan that i had made wif kentot was to meet them at amk hub .
but ernie msg me to meet her at lina's bustop at 1 .
and i was like,what 1?
when i have not even changed and everything ?
so she said she'll pick me up at my bustop at 1 .
i was so the kelam kabut and went to change and rush out of the house at 12.55 .
lucky me she have not arrived when i was late .
then proceded to take wewe,kentot and nana at simei .
after that we went to catch the movie at amk hub .
and we watched coming soon .
it was SUPER SCARY lahh!
as i was seated next to kentot,i hide my face behind her shoulder .
and the hanging parts,i was like grapping her shoulders lah .
and she thought i was bitting her .
hahahaha .
madness .giler per gigit! :)
so after the movie we roamed around at amk hub for a while coz the coupon was still usable .
then after a few min,as we did not know where to go, we decided to go to T3 .
photo session as usual .
and something happened at the toilet of T3 .
dun wish to mention .
only we know what happened .
hahaha .
after a while there,we decided to go back .
and kueen raihanah,i hope you will enjoy ur stay at cambodia .
and kueen raihanah,i hope you will enjoy ur stay at cambodia .
will pray for you to and fro your journey .
and i will miss you gf .
take care of urself there and forget ur unhappiness there .
let them do whatever you want and you will do urs .
Monday, March 23, 2009
1:52 AM
i just feel disgusted by looking at ur face !
asted innocents in front of other people .
when people confronted you,you denied that you did not said what had been told!
like wth!
people are not stupid lahh !
you acted innocent juz to have the attention of others!
i juz feel disgusted lahh!
i HATE this kind of people lahh !
if you felt the pinch,then it must be you lahh!
making people believe every single things you said .
and i think some are stupid lahh .
juz because you did something nice and you felt that people must take ur side ?
and because of you i think friendships have turned sour .
some suffered of friendship coz i dunno what spelled have you put to them .
if you wanted them to like what you're doing,then try other ways and means lahh!
not by wreaking other people friendships .
yes,you didn't know that you wrecked their friendship,but now i'm telling you .
as i've said if anyone felt the pinch,then it must be you then .
and ....
you juz did not understand the intention of her telling you all those things .
you always meant it to be a bad way .
have you listened to others and let them explain?
no,you didn't!
i dun mind of whatever its being called .
why bother?
and through enough,i really know you were bothered by it .
how long have you serve them?
how enough do you know the people there?
how well you know them?
not to be boastful,but i think i know them better then you do .
although i'm not that into all those but i think i went into much than you do .
and why bother of what's been called when i dun even bother?
i juz understand ur attitude lahh!
you keep telling people to do this and that .
but have you ever listened what others wanted to tell you?
why flared up over such stupid things?
hais .
please lahh!
grow up can?
she will almost break down soon juz bacause of this .
dun make things hard for her can?
she's caught in between of you guys when she's only the messenger of telling you the whole situation .
think again lahh .!
and thanks dad for the money . :)ILY!
and exactly 3 more weeks before i enter a new brand school, new environment,new frends .
how am i going to adapt life there ?
Sunday, March 22, 2009
4:10 AM
it's over .
like finally .
i knew it .
she was pressured .
she was stress .
so everything is back to normal .
haha .
had quite a talk wif her .
and gosh lahh !
i miss elly like god knows lahh !
i guess its been SUPER long since i last saw her lahh .
i hope that the date i suggested they could make it .
and yesterday the whole family were out shopping .
i guess its the first time my father spend a lot .
which it amounted to almost 1k lah .
from 8 plus in the morning till almost 4 then we were back .
from my brother's camp which is at CCK to geylang to have breakfast then to singapore expo .
and from the addidas sale which we spend a longgggg time there to halal fodds to robinsons sale !
all in 1 place !
like wth lahh!
my leg was super very painful lahh .
and the sales of the adidas was soooo the a lot of people lahh !
the prices of the adidas things really went down lahh!
it was the superb lahh!
original adidas things really went down!
phew!
my brother from not wanting to buy anything ends up that he bought the things the most .
hahah .
thats it people!
on tuesday will be going out wif girlfriends again .
yeah! :)
like finally .
i knew it .
she was pressured .
she was stress .
so everything is back to normal .
haha .
had quite a talk wif her .
and gosh lahh !
i miss elly like god knows lahh !
i guess its been SUPER long since i last saw her lahh .
i hope that the date i suggested they could make it .
and yesterday the whole family were out shopping .
i guess its the first time my father spend a lot .
which it amounted to almost 1k lah .
from 8 plus in the morning till almost 4 then we were back .
from my brother's camp which is at CCK to geylang to have breakfast then to singapore expo .
and from the addidas sale which we spend a longgggg time there to halal fodds to robinsons sale !
all in 1 place !
like wth lahh!
my leg was super very painful lahh .
and the sales of the adidas was soooo the a lot of people lahh !
the prices of the adidas things really went down lahh!
it was the superb lahh!
original adidas things really went down!
phew!
my brother from not wanting to buy anything ends up that he bought the things the most .
hahah .
thats it people!
on tuesday will be going out wif girlfriends again .
yeah! :)
Thursday, March 19, 2009
5:10 AM
cleared the air wif gyler .told her the whole truth which i had been keeping from her. and thought that she will be angry wif me but it turned out that she didn't .gosh!i was super shocked lahh . and while i was talking to her online,tears came dropping down when i told her what happend . i didn't know why tears keep dropping whenever i told anyone what happened . i dun tell anyhow . only told some of my closests buddies .they kept advicing me to be strong and have patience . yes i will try . i could only told them that . but i didn't know if i could do it a not . and juz now had a small tiff wif mother over a stupid misunderstanding also . as usual, people dun give me a chance to explain what happend and ending up accusing me . am i always in the wrong ? ita told me to give her sometime to cool down . which i think i will give her . maybe due to stress she tends to burst up . i dun blame her anw . i know what she's going through . sometimes i think people won't think what they say esp when they are not in the mood or whenever they are under pressure . mostly it happens to a lot of people . though i do not know what problems you're having, i dun mind that you will blurt it out to me or vent ur frustrations on me . sometimes elly, i tend to think back how i met you and how we became closer which is from strangers to besties . i dun regret knowing you though . for me you're the one who keeps lending me ur ear whenever i needed one . you would uphold justice when you know that i'm not in the wrong . i'm glad that i knew you and through all the miscommunications and misunderstandings that had been through, i dun regret building this friendship of ours . i hope after this you'll cool down and i really hope you'll forgive me wif all the misunderstandings . and to wrapped it up this giler gerl of nur safita wants me to praise her by saying she's PRETTY AND SWEET! . happy now giler ? ahaha . :) and giler thanks for cheering me up !:)
12:42 AM
like wth lah!
update two post juz now .
one is gone already!
shit lahh!
but i dun care .
i'm gonna update another one now .
seems that everyone of my closests is having their own friendship problems .
whats happening nowadays?
having misunderstandings wif our besties turned our friendship into a sour situation .
i dun get it .
why do we tend to have a lot of misunderstandings?
and i never before had any misunderstanding wif her before .
it only happened yestersday .
everything happend in a flash .
tried to explain to you but you didn't want to listen .
i was guilty yes .
i wanted you to listen to my explanation but you didn't want to listen .
i was devastated .
thought that you were the one who understands me .
but you didn't want to reply to my msgs and calls .
you were always the one for me when i was feeling very down .
you were always the one that came to my mind when i was feeling down .
you know how i felt .
tons of advices you gave me but now you dun tend to listen to what i want to tell you .
i knew you had a lot of problems .
i mean who don't .?
i wanted to tell you everything but you did not gave me a chance .
i told you the truth of who i was talking about .
yet you tend to misunderstand me .
had sleepless night yesterdae .
i could not help but keep blaming myself over what happen .
if i did not wrote about the person ,they won't be any misunderstanding between us .
i can only blame myself .
I'M SORRY ELLY !
I DUN HATE OR BLAME ANYONE BUT ONLY MYSELF!
i'm feeling down now .
please understand me can ?
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
11:46 PM
and to someone which now i really dun feel like meeting you,i kinda feel that you're not who you are .
you changed .
everything .
you were someone older then me .
so?
i dun give the bloddy damn of you .
i really felt very irksome of looking at ur face only .
dun make me do the same thing i did to you a few years back .
and i know i did not regret of doing that to you .
last time you apologised and asking what the hell you did wrong .
but now i dun feel that if you were to be begging and apologise , too bad .
you changed .
everything .
you were someone older then me .
so?
i dun give the bloddy damn of you .
i really felt very irksome of looking at ur face only .
dun make me do the same thing i did to you a few years back .
and i know i did not regret of doing that to you .
last time you apologised and asking what the hell you did wrong .
but now i dun feel that if you were to be begging and apologise , too bad .
i'm not gonna face you anymore .
you had two sided face .
dun pretend to be nice anymore .
we knew ur true colours but the only thin is that others dun even know what's happening to you .
you could anyhow twist another story and said a different side of the story .
thought you changed but you didn't .
thought i had forgiven you about the things that you said last time .
but seeing the attitude of urs ,makes me feel that you're not worth forgiving .
time and again you did it .
disappointed with you .
i'm seriously feeling like that .
do whatever you want to do after this .
i'm washing my hands off .
dun come crying to me and complain about stupid stuffs .
adviced you but you did not listen .
truthfully you deserve it!
2:32 AM
she's always there to cheer us up .
and look at my eyebag .wth!
as i've said at my previous post
i dun want to mention about the camp .
whenever i think about it,my blood will surely boil .
but you guys left me wif no choice .
i dun care about what you guys wanna say but i want to say this .
sometimes people are to pampered esp when you're the only child in the family or you got siblings .
but looking the way you are giving the attitude i think you're th only child .
i dun care how you were treated at home or by other people .
but when i gave you advices,you thought i was scolding you .
like wth lahh!
dun tell me i have to talk like a fren to fren to you in front of the trainess?
i'm not like you which i see that you're talking to the trainess like as if you are having a very slacking camp?
you told us that this will be a camp trainig camp?
so let it be a training camp then .
but why are you aren't you making it a training camp?
i dunno what you told to him or her that i scolded you?
please understand the meaning of advicing and shouting can?
good enough we are only advicing you .
i think if you were in our shoes during our time,i think you'll bee peeing in ur pants or crying or shouting ur throats out when you were in our shoes last time .
you guys are better off then us .
i think if you guys were in our shoes last time,you guys will hate us for sure .
juz like this you think that we're scolding you?
sometimes i think you guys cannot accept us scolding you or you guys will give us a stupid black face .
i dunno what's happening to this teens nowadays .
simply can't accept any acolding .
and you even want me to apologise?
like wth!
i'm not in the wrong okay .
if you think that i'm scolding you,FINE be it then!
i dun have a guilty concience .
why should i?
and you even told my kentot to apologise to you when she did not even utter any stupid single word to you?
are you out of ur mind?
can you think?
she did not even scold or say anything to you and you wan her to apologise?
MADNESS!
and to this another person .
you think we're being nice to you?
NO!you're wrong!
why should we tell you what's happening when we know that they will surely tell you?
dun act innocent and treat everything that you dun know .
we knwo you're on whose side .
we're not STUPID !
get it!
and somehow i like it when you were banned and scolded by someone by someone close to you.
told you before,not to take advantage of what's been given to you .
but you did not listen .
so what happens now?
i'm not being cruel of thinking what you deserve but you reallydeserve what you got .
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
5:24 PM
candid lina! pls dun day dream! :)
i super like the houses there lahh!
candid nana! :)
me and janah! :)
candid again!lina and ernie stop making that faces! :)
why that ''FRUST" look?:)
group photo!:)
stop that acting cute face lina! :)
dearests .
whats wif that two behind ? :)
they're loved . :)
threesome . while waiting for the others .
shagged is what i can say.
camp ended .
back from camp and i was truly boomed till the next day .
lacking of sleep makes my head hurts.
after the day that i came back from back from camp,the next day i went to meet my derests secondary school mates .
so yesterday was super nice outing wif them .
from east coast to parkway to vivo to sentosa .
they wanted to watch movie but their planned were cancelled all because of ME!
all baceause i had curfew!
i was kinda guilty lahh .
because of me you guys could not watch the movie .
I"M SUPER SORRY!:(
and mother told me to pay back my overdue fasting .
so she told me not to go out unless i finish my fasting .
so people,i'm not going out till next thursday as i'll be paying back my overdue fasting.
sadded . :(
sometimes i could not understand my parents .
sometimes my brother and i would think why they would treat us this way when our frens parents are not like them .
sometimes when we go out the latest we can be home is before my dad comes home which is ard 6++ .
i sometimes really envy my frens which they can go home as and when they like .
dad told us before the curfew will go on until we get married .
like WTH!
think we're still kids uh!?
like gosh i dunno what's happening lahh .
and i'm not gonna mention about the camp .
and dun expect me to go to school anymore .
sick of it!
kentot will know it!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
4:47 AM
me again!
what's wif that look?ahaha .
our busok faces!
kentot and me .
me!
its okay big brother!
try again!
study again .
i think you can't concentrate coz of wat happen .
its okay .
there's still another try .
you still have a lot of time .
need not rush .
although you failed,you're still the best brother!
and i realised that you're not like last time .
you're really the matured big brother!
and we dun quarrel like we use to .
except that you would always joke and sometimes you're irritating .
ahahaha .
but ur irritatingness is sometimes quite funny .
ahahah .
and in another 6 more months is ur ORD already!
and you're free from NS already!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
7:45 PM
saw someone's blog and i think she changed a lot !
and i mean a lot!
few years of friendship i thought you would not change but you truly changed .
i dare not say who but we use to be close frens and i still think she is .
but for me, she changed !
there's this saying , make a new fren but dun forget your old frens .
you're not the gerl that i use to know .
from going out wif you use to be fun but lately when we were out , i think you change a lot .
maybe we are not so close anymore since you had ur frens .
why the sudden change?
i want the old attitude of urs .
you sometimes hesitantly wanted to go out .
its like you're being forced to go out .
you were not like this but suddenly your attitude changes .
no doubt that sometimes i wanted to tell you the truth but i juz do not want to hurt ur feelings and end up that we will have a big misunderstanding .
i know you have a lot of frens but i juz find that you're not the same person anymore .
sometimes i would think back during old days that you were the person that we used to know .
everything changes now .
and a lot of things have happen lately which i would not want to mention here .
frens aside . family is my most concern now .
brother got caught by dad yesterdae wif a group of his frens with a gerl with hym when he's suppose to be in camp .
he was stunned when he saw dad .
he msg me asking if parents were angry wif hym .
and i told hym obviously .
i think he was scared and he called my parents juz now .
and now its okay already .
and now you can concentrate on ur practical test drive todae .
good luck big brother!
you can do it!
if you could not do it, it's okay .
there's still another try!
dun worry .
and yesterday when beach road wif wewe and kentot!
when round and round the whole beach road including hq .
gosh!
when we arrive there, we were talking abouth the times when we were
always suppose to go to hq for exams,competitions,meetings,interviews .
years passed and it seems that its been a long time we've been there . memories are a lot in SJ .
sweet,bitter,cries,laughters .
i'm missing all those bunch of cadets .
and 3 more days to camp!
and i simply can't wait .
but the thing i dun like is, we have bring full-u!
and its been so long since i wore it .
ahahaha .
thats it .
pictures will be uploded later when kentot is online later .
Monday, March 9, 2009
7:11 PM
sometimes i think frens are juz not forever .
some frens juz say that whenever we are not in the same school,we must not forget one another.
but sometimes they juz say it so that our friendship is not broken .
i'm not saying about anybody but somehow this topic came to my
mind a few days ago .
when i think about my frens, hmm, i dunno .
i dare not say but i will juz say some parts and no to have any misunderstanding, my frens
as i've said,i'm not saying about anyone but this is how i feel .
from primary school,i did not keep in contact with them except for some but as for secondary school i'm still in contact with most of my frens but now when i'm not in school already, i tend to feel that frens change easily .
attitude changes,the way they treat you is different also .
i wrote about this is also because that i got to know my father's story which he got cheated with a big sum of money through his best fren .
thats how the topic came to my mind .
learning from this, somehow i feel that we should not let our frens take advantage of us be it our best frens or a normal fren .
so i hope i could refrain from hurting any of my frens with this post .
if any of you is unhappy,i'm sorry .
Friday, March 6, 2009
4:40 AM
hais .
again i'm going to johor tomorrow .
suppose to be todae night but my dad was tired .
so tomorrow morning i'll be going .
and up till mondae till i'm back .
gosh!
sometimes i'm sick of johor but since we are going further than johor,i decided to follow coz i will shop again!
ahahaha .
juz bought a new heel slippers a last two daes and here am i gonna shop again at johor and malacca .
ahahaha .
great!
i'm gonna spend again .
and seems that she's trying to make it up to me since that time she lose her temper at me .
ahaha .
i dunno whats happening to my mum nowadays .
well,no matter how bad her temper is,she's still my mum .
and toddles!
i'm off to pack my bag now!
and next week is SJAB camp!
gosh!
i can't wait lahhh!
again i'm going to johor tomorrow .
suppose to be todae night but my dad was tired .
so tomorrow morning i'll be going .
and up till mondae till i'm back .
gosh!
sometimes i'm sick of johor but since we are going further than johor,i decided to follow coz i will shop again!
ahahaha .
juz bought a new heel slippers a last two daes and here am i gonna shop again at johor and malacca .
ahahaha .
great!
i'm gonna spend again .
and seems that she's trying to make it up to me since that time she lose her temper at me .
ahaha .
i dunno whats happening to my mum nowadays .
well,no matter how bad her temper is,she's still my mum .
and toddles!
i'm off to pack my bag now!
and next week is SJAB camp!
gosh!
i can't wait lahhh!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
10:27 PM
Gosh!
what's happening to parents nowadays .
they can simply change their mood .
they can simply vent it on us .
they always think that they are rite .
its not fair lahh .
think we are their punching bag is it ?
sometimes their mood is very good but sometimes their mood juz changes .
as i juz told kentot , sometimes i juz wanna get out of this house coz i juz can't take it anymore !
whenever they are in a very bad mood esp the mothers,they would juz curse or scold you like nobody's business .
as i said at my last post i'm bored at home .
she juz bloody dun understand how bored it is at home .
and good enough i'm staying at home dis week .
still she's not happy .
complaining that i'm out everyday?
WTH!
i didn't even go out lahh!
everywhere she wanna go,i follow .
now she's giving me this attitude !
waliao .
and i'm not going to school until the camp daes .
as i'm having my reasons .
only kentot will know .
i'm sick and tired of having this kind of mother!
i've been putting up with her nonsense and here is she giving me hell!
ARGHHHH!!!!
what's happening to parents nowadays .
they can simply change their mood .
they can simply vent it on us .
they always think that they are rite .
its not fair lahh .
think we are their punching bag is it ?
sometimes their mood is very good but sometimes their mood juz changes .
as i juz told kentot , sometimes i juz wanna get out of this house coz i juz can't take it anymore !
whenever they are in a very bad mood esp the mothers,they would juz curse or scold you like nobody's business .
as i said at my last post i'm bored at home .
she juz bloody dun understand how bored it is at home .
and good enough i'm staying at home dis week .
still she's not happy .
complaining that i'm out everyday?
WTH!
i didn't even go out lahh!
everywhere she wanna go,i follow .
now she's giving me this attitude !
waliao .
and i'm not going to school until the camp daes .
as i'm having my reasons .
only kentot will know .
i'm sick and tired of having this kind of mother!
i've been putting up with her nonsense and here is she giving me hell!
ARGHHHH!!!!
Monday, March 2, 2009
11:32 PM
I'm SUPER frustrated now!
juz dun bother asking!
i won't answer to any questions asked!
i dunno whats wrong with me by venting my frustrations to anyone!
and i'm bored!!!!!!!!!!
i wanted to go out but its no use now!
i'll juz keep on rotting and rotting then!
and dun take advantage of someone when he/she
gives you faces!
i'll tell the whole truth to the person!
you juz watch your back!
if you're feeling the pinch,that person must be you then!
i will do it when i'm really angry now!!!!
1:54 AM
i've been missing a lot of updates lately .
i was super tired nowadays .
had been in and out of malaysia this daes and for the info of you guys,i might be staying in malaysia in the future .
that's why my family had been in and out of malaysia lately .
but its still not confirm yet as my mum and i do not agree as we might not get use to living there but my brother juz dun mind about my dad's suggestion .
i dun really like staying there although the houses there are beautiful and the standard of living there is quite low .
my dad says if we were to live there,we could save a lot of money and the things they are a lot more cheeper than in singapore .
i too love the houses there but seriously i'm not interested in living there which in the future i have to be in and out of singapore if i were to work in singapore in future .
i'll be exhausted and the timing of going home is to tiring .
by then i have to sacrificed a lot of things in singapore .
as my cousin mention the place won't be like at orchard road or ps .
we have to get to know the places there and get use of taking their buses .
and mentioning about the transportation,they dun have mrts like we have in singapore and their buses mostly are buses to overseas . even if they have buses its only very limited.
hmmmm , i really need to consider very carefully and i have to sacrificed of leaving all my bunches of dearests friends when i'm there .
AND , forgotten that todae is ernie eirda 19th birthday!i'm so sorry babe!
from primary schoolmate when we not quite close to secondary school buddies and still going on .
i guess its been 10 years since we build this friendship . you were always there when i needed someone to talk although last time we aren't that close ,we did became close after we entered secondary school . i dun regret having to know you . you were always the one giving us rides when we are out . although sometimes we use to quarrel due to some misunderstandings,but that were only ups and downs when we were friends . and i juz hope that dis friendship will last till the end . ily babe! :)
