Because in every me, there's always you.

Those were the mom ents, love

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 7:13 PM

And yes!
My Beloved Brother is finally home yesterdae..
hahas..
Finally he's home and thre goes the kecohness at home..
wif hym being around at home,things seems to be happening at home..
hahas..
Yesterdae was totally not my dae lah seyy..
my mood was alrite,but due to some reasons,suddenly i keep thinking of something which i'm avoiding nowadays...
he(someone which i will not mention and only certain pple will know)had ask me some question which i find it all of a sudden and i think it's too fast isn't it?i'm just not ready for anything..i didn't know you for long and suddenly you ask me this?OMG!i thought i would have someone to share my problems of wat i'm having but NO,it seems that you want us to go through a deeper relationship?that's a NO,NO to me..It's too fast!Even if i accepted you,my heart will not be wif you but wif someone else..so why bother if we are in the relationship?it would either hurt you and make me suffer everytime i'm talking to you?it's no use rite?i know u're not goin to read dis,but i hope that u will understand that i'm not ready to be in either a relationship wif you or anyone else..i know you will tell me that you demand a explanation of why i'm doin dis to you or either you say i'll be selfish to you but the fact is my heart is not open for any guys except hym..
maybe he have hurt me and i've already spend all the tears on aguy like hym,but as long as i'm satisfied wif wat i want and without hym knowing,i dun mind..
so i hope you will understand the decision i'm making is for my own happiness and my own future.Watever you say will not affect me in any way..

and to you my beloved one,
maybe i know how i am to you.
but i will still continue to wait even
if it was in the future.